Free-style blog...

Some scar are meant to STAY

2012-01-21T04:31:00.001+08:00

When a person does wrong for the first time we would forgive them i they ask for it. What if it was a continuous occurance? And what if the reasons used was "please forgive me for the LAST TIME" how many last time are there? What is LAST? Are you that dumb not to notice that you have been the one doing the wrongs and I am the one fixing your mess. What am I? Your maid? You come to us with a pathethic face which really got sympathy from everyone and NOT only that, you scrutinize my reputation until people think im the villain.. Please.. Im not as evil as your are. I think it ends everything.. Im done trying to ignore the pain u have caused and im also done wasting my time trying to save you, I tot u were worth it but actually you are not worth anything. Worst case scenario is that you still dont know where u went wrong, you're disgusting and filthy and rotten in EVERY WAY! I used to help u coz I thought u needed sincere help but it turns out ir just a hypocrite, a wolf on sheeps clothing! Go torture someone else for the scar yi have caused has bleeded to often and i will not be stupid again .

Lost for love

2012-01-01T14:12:00.001+08:00

A story that began a few years back with ups and down.. Funny when the whole world colapse when the love of ur lifee leaves u. Im sorry if i had done anything wrong. Forgive me. i still love u... I still do. Love you with all my heart. what am i to do. Its the new year and im still not happy. No one to spent it with. Knowing that she is sick.. Im sorry, sorry i am nt there to take care of u :(

A day filled with excitement

2011-12-14T23:00:00.001+08:00

Well I started my day by taking 2 separate buses to Uni and entered a meeting. An proud o myself though to live a day with NO car... Lol so after that i entered class and enjoyed a slight debate. Besides that waited to have dinner with college mates and we certainly had fun. Ahaha all the food oh dear!! After that michelle,susan and i decided to walk to Sunway Pyramid for a movie..大英雄，小男人:) later will be walking back to complete assignment... Its going to be a longggggg night!!

Its that time of the year again:)

2011-12-12T15:38:00.001+08:00

Christmas this year to me is a little depressing but that doesnt stop me from pushing myself into a pool of joy and happiness...This year i might take thing up a notch. Will try my best though... Erm well not that high a notch. hehe i hope tht these few pic of my own photography would help put you in the mood of enjoyment and hope that u will enjoy ur christmas mood ;) merry blessed christmas and a happyyyyy new year:)

30-Hour Famine

2011-07-12T04:15:00.003+08:00

8th and 9th July 2011 marks the special occasion..

30-Hour Famine was one of UNIRAZAK Chinese Students Association (UCSA) event which lasted for 2 days and 1 night. Campers and committee were required to eat before they started the Famine. Participants were asked to fast from

10.00 am (8/7/2011) to 4 pm (9/7/2011)

[a total of 30 HOURS]

throughout the whole process, enjoyment was at its best...

Mother's Day :)

2011-05-04T12:09:00.002+08:00

Mother's day. A day where everybody celebrates the happiness that they themselves share with their beloved mother. Every mother is a saint to their children in their own way. It is just how we acknowledge this. Sometimes for this occasion, some people tend to go to the extreme and yet their mothers are unhappy.What actually makes mothers happy is that they tend to want the simplest things in life (this is what I have learnt through time ). Every mother just wants a F-A-M-I-L-Y... (Father And Mother , I Love You) that is all actually.

Well for me this year and last year would be the hardest. Although trying to embrace this "feeling" is said to be easy, am I that weak to change? or an impact of a lost mother was a tremendous change in my life? I seriously do not know where to start. It is like i am able to help change people but yet I can't change myself. The pain of it has really lost my confidence in life. Yet I must show a stronger exterior for i must not make people weaker than me collapse with me.

A question that I tend to ask when I see ill- mannered children towards their parents. Why won't they learn? Is it because that they must have a certain loss then only they will reflect and understand? Well let it be and to all mother's out there "HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY" ..

Are you Game for it?

2011-05-01T04:30:00.003+08:00

Personally, I thought that it has a meaning to being friends. After knowing you, my life has changed tremendously( in the worst of ways). I do not know what else is there about you that does not seem to make friends work. I have made up my mind that you should be best left in your own world.

Tell me, what really makes you hate me so much? In your own manner you despite me and talk about me based on your insecurity. Have I no dignity? Have I no pride? What you did was just hurtful and plain revengeful. I do not know how i should move on with a friend like you.

You decide.. should be friends that care or that doesn't care.

A mind filled with Emptiness..

2011-04-27T03:50:00.002+08:00

After almost two years, I still am sitting here alone Blogging about this. How much I have began to realize as the fear of silence and loneliness begins to creep in on me. What have I gain this past year? Could it fill the loss that I've lost ? Can it replace the huge part of love that was gone from me? I suddenly feel I am no longer human.

Friends maybe something I have. They are those who show themselves when I am in darkness. Nevertheless, the boundaries are still visible even so marked with such thin lines. How am I suppose to support myself when I have a great sense of fear. When, I begin loosing everything I have once own, even my sanity.

Oh, how splendid the feeling would be when I could turn back the time and change EVERYTHING. For even that one second, I could have made a difference. How TIME messes with me ALL the time. Becoming nothing but a great Fear. Nothing but a rat race in life. NOTHING but trouble in REALITY.

xxFLASHBACKxx

What remains most clearly in my mind was the second when a dying mother looked upon his son and touched his face saying : " Please don't cry..I don't want to see you like this.. I know it is hard but please remember the cheerful part of me." and then falling into a Coma. With hope, the son was praying that she would get out from that coma..3 days later, she passed on. That broken down son was me.. How can I let something so precious to me slip away in front of my very eyes. Something that automatically ran flashbacks of memories in my head and stole all the LOVE away. How am I to pretend. I do not think I am strong enough to hold on anymore. I am going to collapse.

"My life has been filled with temporary colours, what matters is no longer here"

as for all my colours shall slowly fade into the dungeons of darkness

knowing nothing but FEAR and LONELINESS

-FreeStyler-

What is up with you?

2011-04-26T10:35:00.002+08:00

Somehow i feel dumbfounded nowadays when i am so determined to help you

and you just throw it away like this..

i changed so much for a friend which led my relationship life to a wreck..

you still feel unappreciated..hmmph.. you really do not know how to suck it up right.

I have given you more than what a friendship can give but you still want more and take it for granted..

When will you learn?

When WILL you change?

WILL you EVER change?

I am just so tired of all this life that you have barred me from happiness.. tell me..

what have you done in your life that is right?

LEARN.. Please..Get a life..

Happy Easter!!

2011-04-24T03:08:00.003+08:00

So.. Knowing that easter is around the corner..we (Hvoon, Chai Ying, Michelle (via SKYPE) Susan Lim and I decided to paint eggs and give them to the children...

Here is how the story goes...

Hvoon being happy with the purple egg that she had made for Michelle (YES! Purple is her FAVOURITE Colour)

(Above : The first coat of paint..)

Well we visited the nearby "mamak" stall while waiting for the eggs to dry...

When it finally dried...

(L to R : Me...Hvoon...Chai Ying)

We started our job painting... And well we were really working hard... THINKING mostly..

(Above : Chai Ying)

This is what happens when you let a young tired child who is out of ideas unattended lol..

SEE the BLURNESS..

Ta-da.... our final product.... teeheee... Loving the art... especially the fun we had...BUT

Doing it AGAIN next year might still be in consideration... lol

-FreeStyler-

Fight for?

2011-03-04T02:46:00.002+08:00

What do we fight for?

Goals?Satisfaction? or.. getting hurt?

....

(go figure)

You say you've changed but how much?

cheating others? Lying about it?

....

We all want to trust people...

Who? How?

Are they really trustworthy?

....

Frequent problem faced

my current emotion :(

2011-03-02T06:30:00.000+08:00

Feeling broken
Barely holding on
But there’s just something so strong
Somewhere inside me
And I am down but I’ll get up again
Don’t count me out just yet

I’ve been brought down to my knees
And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I’ll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven’t seen the last of me
You haven’t seen the last of me

They can say that
I won’t stay around
But I’m gonna stand my ground
You’re not gonna stop me
You don’t know me
You don’t know who I am
Don’t count me out so fast

I’ve been brought down to my knees
And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I’ll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven’t seen the last of me

There will be no fade out
This is not the end
I’m down now
But i’ll be standing tall again
Times are hard but
I was built tough
I’m gonna show you all what I’m made of

I’ve been brought down to my knees
And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I’ll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over
You haven’t seen the last of me

No no
I’m not going nowhere
I’m staying right here
Oh no
You won’t see me begging
I’m not taking my bow
Can’t stop me
It’s not the end
You haven’t seen the last of me
Oh no
You haven’t seen the last of me
You haven’t seen the last of me

Marriage Humor （婚姻幽默）

2011-02-25T11:57:00.003+08:00

Wife: 'What are you doing?'
妻：你在作什麼啊？
Husband : Nothing.
夫：沒作什麼。
Wife : 'Nothing...? You've been reading our marriage certificate for an hour.'
妻：沒作什麼？你看著我們的結婚證書，足足有一小時了。
Husband : 'I was looking for the expiry date.'
夫：我在尋找它的有效日期是到什麼時候。
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Wife : 'Do you want dinner?'
妻：要吃晚餐嗎？
Husband : 'Sure! What are my choices?'
夫：當然！我可以選擇嗎？
Wife : 'Yes or no.'
妻：要或不要。
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Wife: 'You always carry my photo in your wallet. Why?'
妻：為什麼你經常把我的照片放在你皮夾裡？
Hubby: 'When there is a problem, no matter how impossible, I look at your picture and the problem disappears.'
夫：當問題發生時，不管有多困難，我看著妳照片就迎刃而解了。
Wife: 'You see how miraculous and powerful I am for you!'
妻：你看我對你有多麼驚人的影響力啊！
Hubby: 'Yes! I see your picture and ask myself what other problem can there be greater than this one?'
夫：是啊！望著妳的照片我問自己，還有什麼困難比這個來得大呢？
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Stress Reliever Girl: 'When we get married, I want to share all your worries, troubles and lighten your burden.'
女孩：婚後我要分擔你所有的煩惱、困擾，以減輕你的負擔。
Boy: 'It's very kind of you, darling, but I don't have any worries or troubles.'
男孩：親愛的，妳真體貼，但我並沒有任何煩惱或困擾。
Girl: 'Well that's because we aren't married yet.'
女孩：哦？那是因為我們還沒結婚的緣故。
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Son: ' Mom, when I was on the bus with Dad this morning, he told me to give up my seat to a lady.'
子：今早我和爹地一起搭車，他要我讓座給一位女士。
Mom: 'Well, you have done the right thing.'
母：嗯，你這麼做是對的。
Son: 'But mom, I was sitting on daddy's lap.'
子：但是，媽，我當時是坐在爹地的腿上呢。
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A newly married man asked his wife, 'Would you have married me if my father hadn't left me a fortune?'
一位新婚的先生問他太太：如果我父親沒留下巨額財產給我，你會嫁給我嗎？
'Honey,' the woman replied sweetly, 'I'd have married you, N O =ATTER WHO LEFT YOU A FORTUNE!'
女人溫柔的答道：親愛的，不管是誰留下財產給你，我都會嫁給你的。

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Girl to her boyfriend: One kiss and I'll be yours forever .
女孩對著男友說：吻我一下，我就永遠屬於你了。
The guy replies: 'Thanks for the early warning.'
男孩回道：謝謝您提早警告我。
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A wife asked her husband: 'What do you like most in me, my pretty face or my sexy body?'
妻問夫：你最喜歡我哪一點？我美麗的臉龐，還是我性感的軀體？
He looked at her from head to toe and replied: 'I like your sense of humor.'
他把她從頭到腳瀏覽了一遍，回道：我喜歡你的幽默。

Marriage Humor （婚姻幽默）

2011-02-25T11:57:00.001+08:00

Believing in yourself :)

2011-02-22T20:19:00.002+08:00

It has been a while since I blogged, I find it facinating that there is confusion

BETWEEN

believing and trusting,

The two might sound similar but then yet they are different in their own way.

Life has two sides just like a coin.

we never know whether we should trust or believe.

My opinion is we should Trust because we love, believe because we do.

All in all it comes to what really comes from the heart.

the end of the memories based on a bad experience

2011-02-12T00:27:00.002+08:00

Here i am blogging after so long..

so this time its going to be a story from a different approach. Maybe i am not the best or maybe i am not the greatest person there is, but it does not mean that we allow our judgement to be as cruel as from what we pass before in our life. Many let the concept of "one bad apple spoils the whole basket". I personally don't deny the fact that i don't like it. but dun just walk out of my life without telling a single thing. I have feelings but maybe you are still young and that you are the eldest so you might not know how to understand people yet. I will definitely not clip your wings and will let you go with your perception. I hope this blog will mean alot to you.

i hope that you leave me with the best i ever taught you as a friend and as a father. I also hope that maybe me gone will help you discover your real self and make sure that it is worth it.

I pray the best for you. take care.

-Loudao-

help from people whom i love..and loves me

2011-01-15T20:39:00.002+08:00

hey guys.. in life i did some thinking and decided to post this up.. :)I REALISED THAT THOSE WHO REALLY CARE FOR ME ARE THOSE WHO ACTUALLY TAKE THE TIME TO ASK:.Im thAnkful for this peRson..My daughTeR..ThANk you

New Year New beginning:)

2011-01-11T03:02:00.001+08:00

Some beginnings are great just as if it was what we wished for to last a lifetime.... but then don't you think we should really be realistic.? We faced years after years making resolutions that we never tend do keep... and promises that are easily forgotten..

"What will Make 2011 DIFFERENT??"

I know what... our character.. our attitude... our motive...

So think positively and things will grow your way....

Smile more often to cheer up peoples day :)

Lop-sided

2010-12-29T00:11:00.002+08:00

Say things in front of my face... Don't ever rub it in when I'm not looking..

The level of respect i give you has not BEGIN to have it's limits.!

Screw YOU!

Don't Fuck up My life when I'm trying hard to fix it straight...

Leave my LIFE alone..

Don't try and screw it just Because yours is screwed

!@#$%^(*&^%$

DARN YOU!!!

I have feelings too okay.!

Stop spreading Bull Shit!`

More than Words :)

2010-12-15T00:38:00.002+08:00

Winning... Is it EVERYTHING?

2010-12-13T23:52:00.002+08:00

Winning... It must be a great feeling.. I am positively sure that Most of you will agree.. but.. Is it Everything?? I question myself everytime... to make sure it runs smooth...My life i mean... But why are there still people who ONLY want to win?

"Kiasu-ness" is something i hate... really... What you all get? temporary Satisfaction?

"Do we REALLY want TEMPORARY satisfaction or LONG TERM satisfaction....."

-Freestyler~!-

Nothing to SAY..

2010-12-10T22:58:00.002+08:00

Is LIFE that short...

Then, Why do we still waste it?

Like what i read about Alviss...

It saddens me...

But

Are we learning from it? Changes in life ?

How do we make it better?

Being in Segamat for a few days have already made me realized what i have lost..

and it also made me think and understand hardship of living almost without parents.

Sharing it with others only made me stronger than usual.

But then

This suppressed feelings...Would anyone understand?

If you shouted it out loud.. Who would response?

but

would they understand...

I GIVE UP..

making a DIFFERENCE?

2010-12-06T02:39:00.002+08:00

:: Tell me Honestly...::

~What is making a difference? is it really about lying to other people when no effort is put in??

The hectics you put FRIENDS in when u pull a wool over our eyes?~

Help Me learn the meaning of change.. What is CHANGE?

WILL the BE CHANGE?

will we all DIE being the STUPID old COWS that we already ar?

Start Thinking:)

~FreeStyler~!

Appalam..

2010-11-28T03:36:00.002+08:00

Watched Appalam with Michelle and Susan..

Although it was a Tamil Film... We all Still laugh our hearts out..

Besides that..

WE decided to watch a light humorous movie before we battle our FINALS..

-FreeStyler~!-

Marriage!

2010-11-21T22:50:00.002+08:00

Marriage...

Someone who confirms themselves are legally tied in matrimony..

So On the 13th of November

Miss Amberley and Mr Alvin Tan

Were there LOVE involved? YES! Plenty In Fact!

The symbolism of matrimony is the fact that two people were plunging into

Mutual RESPONSIBILITY and Mutual UNDERSTANDING...

BUT

Is marriage always this sweet.. well i QUOTE..

"Marriage is Made in HEAVEN...and so is THUNDER and LIGHTNING"

so everything in life has it's ups and down..

Well to Miss Amberley.oops i mean MRS Tan... may you be blessed with eternal Happiness from God to live as ONE with MR Alvin Tan!! :)

-FreeStyler~!-

Sometimes..

2010-11-17T11:28:00.002+08:00

Sometimes shit happens and we do not know it... just like what happened to me... something bad always happen and always they come to us unaware.. hmmm.. enough of philosophy in a day.. now hear my story.. i feel sad and not because i lost someone.. but it is because i lost my laptop and harddisk. Not only that, i also lost my friends stuff.. But what pierces the most is when all memories that are in picture forms of my happiest moments are missing.. and what almost killed me was assignment that were due soon were in my lappie...

Well as the chinese people use to say, "if the old does not go, the new does not come" well it was really costly.. Besides that..I was still pondering on hoe to retrieve back my mum's photo. T.T

It's all gone, but then Michelle (my daughter) told me that, my um will always be in my heart. i felt relieved.

Well this post is just to release depression, suppression , and also tension.

-Freestyler~!-

Birthday!

2010-11-13T03:28:00.004+08:00

We celebrated Quenie and Girlie's birthday! together..

Even though rivalry pushes us apart it is the friendship that pushes the rivalry away.

So...

we All gather around in De Garden Cafe which is located in Sunway

( The ambiance was nice and pleasant to the eyes.)

But

What really caught my attention was the setting of the place was as if it was at the outskirts of town.

(My drink : De Garden Milk Tea)

(If i'm not mistaken it is Lemon Blue Soda)

(Grilled Cheese Chicken Chop with Mushroom sauce)

(Garlic bread and Famous mushroom soup)

Before Departing we decided to keep a token of memory to remember who and where we celebrated the auspicious day

(Standing L-R: Wendy,Susan,Wan Xin,Wenny,Stephanie and Michelle)

(Seated L-R: Eugene Teh, Brian(me), Gilbert Goh, Skye Toh and Bernie)

"Life if full of Questions,Friend are always the Answer..Seek them and you shwll find that there are no Difficulties in LIFE :) "

-FreeStyler~!-

Shortness.

2010-11-04T22:47:00.002+08:00

Im wondering,

Life is Short... Should i even SHORTEN it even more.

I'm Depressed.

God Help me..

Take care Guys if i Shorten my Life.

Will always cherish happiness spent together.

-FreeStyler~!-

Some Things are meant to Think about!

2010-11-02T04:51:00.002+08:00

::SILENT=LISTEN::

We know we are told to live life to the FULLEST...

But

How many of us know the meaning? or Even know the way to do so?

Sometimes if we just keep quiet.. and LISTEN to the SILENT message..

We would realize that GOD sends us messages ALL the time..

Look at the Picture below:-

What can we LEARN from it?

Honestly..

To me, I see it as an individual being able to be SIMPLE and yet STAND OUT!

and

this by far is the most valuable LESSON!

If we don't LISTEN with our HEARTS..

we would NEVER acknowledge this beautiful message...

being simple doesn't mean that we are an island on our own..

It means that we are not changing WHO we REALLY are to PLEASE others..

We are JUST remaining THE WAY God has made us

and also

Accepting the fact that we do not need to OVER DO things to let people notice us but yet

Subdue every negativity and channeling into producing something subtle.

Originality is always better than ANY OTHER characteristics in the WORLD

-FreeStyler~!-

Blogging in Class!! :)

2010-10-21T10:53:00.001+08:00

Im having a reallll fun yet boring clas... im blogging while in class... update you later.... gtg for TALK... hahaha

Im Finally LEGAL!!! :P

2010-10-17T08:09:00.001+08:00

Thank you soooo much to Miss Wendy, Miss Tessa, Gor( Goh Seng Thong) , Qua Chee... Friends... and FAMILY>> i really love the party...

Im FiNaLlY 21!!!

LeGaL!

Everything=NOTHING

2010-10-09T01:25:00.003+08:00

Now i suddenly feel a breeze of depression..

Why is it so that I am able to feel and comfort other people

BUT

I can not understand myself

STUPIDITY just stroke me..

and SELF PITY is the DEADLY consequences,

It was once a happy child that turn utterly dull...

"Once a Child that always smile,

Leaving a trace of happiness long gone,

If i stay in existing way,

There is nothing else that i can say"

WOW!

2010-10-06T22:37:00.001+08:00

Figurines Madness :P

Abstractness and Craziness has its Boundaries!

2010-10-06T22:29:00.002+08:00

When we look at people... They seem complex to us just like an art.

But then only "Talented" people see them in a different aspect and this makes me wonder.

What is ABSTRACT? What is being CRAZY?

Lets' take a few minutes to ponder upon this Questions.

Am I an ABSTRACT person?

Do i OVER-THINK things?

When I think TOO hard... Does this mean I'm CRAZY?

Thought about this a long time but there is still no valid answer for me...

it is just that, I feel there is ONLY a FINE line between ABSTRACT and CRAZINESS..

I think i slanting towards Craziness....

Tiredness with no regret! :)

2010-09-30T02:03:00.004+08:00

Alright a short post...

:::: Being the emcee for the Mid autumn event wasn't easy because we needed concentration!!! :)

But then we had loads of fun... THank You All that has helpsed!!! THANK YOU!!!

Tiredness with no regret! :)

2010-09-30T02:03:00.000+08:00

One Malaysia?

2010-09-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

Well... I'm very tired to begin with...i was at Annexxe hall with my Co-emcee miss Tessa and miss Lau swet yen...

But then we were stressing on the last minute changes... even so, we did not loose our temper and actually enjoyed ourselves :)

but most importantly we works together despite all races :)

Enjoy this video :) Cheers XD

-FreeStyler~!-

New Toy :D

2010-09-27T02:19:00.003+08:00

I was looking for this for a VERY long time:)

i finally found it

I bought my finally long awaited PLASMA BALL!!!

-FreeStyler~!-

LOVE....

2010-09-25T00:50:00.002+08:00

What is LOVE?

Is love meant to HURT?

Is love something that makes us feel Vulnerable?

Does love make you IMMUNE to all sorts of stuff??

Is love a DRUG?

Tell me What is LOVE..

Love is MUTUAL!

Love is ALL about RESPECT!

Love is NOT about MAKING YOU FEEL PROUD!

Love is about CARING for others!

That is the power of LOVE :)

-FreeStyler~!-

Happy Mid-Autumn Celebration!!

2010-09-22T23:23:00.004+08:00

A nIgHt wHeRe tHe mOoN is FULL aNd tHe sKiEs are CLEAR!!!

sO we aLL gAthEreD at JoEy Li's house... :)

Well Honest to say i really had a blast seeing ALL act so childishly..:P

It really brings out youth! and family ties are the strings of LOVE that never breaks!

HaPpY mId-AuTuMn fEsTiVaL!!! :)

-FreeStyler~!-

Deeds are meant to be done!! XP

2010-09-21T23:05:00.003+08:00

The usual thing happen today.. i woke up LATE for i had no class at all(this was to regain SLEEP)

then went to check up on Grandpa who was still in the hospital... was admitted yesterday..Luckily it was ONLY dehydration..nothing big!

While waiting for the doctor to come and check on him... i decided to go donate BLOOD

YES...i donated 450ml of my precious blood.. well it is for a great cause..

anyway... i was waiting for this day after getting time in my busy schedule..

After that... i was really tired as i drove back to fetch Stephy Cheong.. Luckily... she drove me back to her mum's place for dinner... LOVE you Jie jie.... May God bless you!! What would i do without you!! :)Thank you soooooooooo much

Lesson learnt: Good things come back to us without asking for it.. :)

-FreeStyler~!-

Mid-Autumn Festival

2010-09-20T02:56:00.005+08:00

Shopping at Sunway pyramid with Stephy Cheong, Joey Li , And Joel Lieng has made my day.. even though i was really tired i still had enough energy to go and see the outside world... We first made a stop at the centre court where we witness the professional pastry chef moulding the fresh-handmade mooncake... It was fresh from the OVEN!!! So tempting... and as i stared upwards i saw Lanterns hanging which boosted my excitement to know that Mid Autumn festival is around the corner!!! Woohoo!!! and this post is to wish ALL READERS!!!

HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL!!!!!!

The Pastry Chef that showed us hands on how to make the mooncake:)

:: The beautiful end result::

::Lanterns Galore!!!::

Bad Luck?? Well Shit happens..

2010-09-20T02:42:00.003+08:00

::Well today(Sunday, 19/9/2010) was an unfortunate day for my dad... im serious.. he went to church and parked at the side of the church..which was near thought o the construction site.. so as predicted..his car was the lucky car to get it... :( well nothing much i could say.. but just look at the pictures...

Rush Galore Day!! hahah

2010-09-19T02:22:00.008+08:00

:::::::::: Okay... I just reached HOME!!! (2.30A.M.) hahah amazing aren't I??? so today i was the driver to drive Ah Gong and Joey Li to Tropicana Medical Centre... where her brother in-law was admitted... so after a filling fish head noodle meal.. we went there... here are some pictures..

(above):: The flower arrangement to cheer him up after an operation.. :)

(below):: his youngest daughter striking a "fierce" pose :P

(above): Conference of soon to become doctors... heheh

:::::::::: After paying him a visit and to make sure that he is alright after the surgery.. we sent Joey Li's sister back home, and there we felt very welcome because the youngest girl was really really cute... i felt like kidnapping her back... she decided to show us ROCKS that was painted... and they were so colourful... and she was excited to share her "treasure" with us.. which made me realize yet again.. that "HAPPINESS LIES IN THE EXPRESSION OF OTHERS AND NOT IN YOURSELF"

(Above):: all her collections of hand painted rocks...(nice ryte??)

(Below):: there is the mischievous girl :D and her collections!! (close up!)

:: later that night... i rushed myself over to Auntie Anna's place.. for Amos Wong and Elaine Mah's Birthday.. May you both grow with all the joy that you may cope with and are able to spread it vastly throughout the world to make it a more colourful world..

::I was rushing like mad because i had to get the ingredients and Prepare the SALAD by 9 P.M!::

by the time i gathered all the ingredients it was already 8.45P.M and it seem rarely possible and

knowing me... i made the impossible possible... ahahah and I think it was a success!!
Well.. Like they say.. Picture paints a Thousand words...:D

(Above) : the Birthday girls cake!!!
(above) : Amos... the adorable yet naughty girl!!
(below): Amos and the mother ( we all know where Amos learnt her naughtiness from) XP

:: The PROBLEM-FREE children::

Lesson learnt : when sad or depressed, it is sometimes best to just suppress them and smile..for we do not want to trouble others with our own problem... When someone smiles at you.. It does not mean they do not have their own problems..it is just that they do not need to burden you with things they worry and not for you to worry :D

-FreeStyler~!-

New TOYS!!

2010-09-18T00:26:00.004+08:00

:: Woohoo~~ Finally... i got a set of MAHJONG... My very own set. I'm So happy...::

well... it began with JOEY LI influencing me to play... and got hook to it... like i"m now hooked to ICED LEMON COKE in BOSTON...heheh

A little glimpse of my new toys...

well today was rather exciting (well towards the end of the day)

Well Stephy Cheong's boyfriends' car DIED in the middle of the road..(Figuratively speaking...)so we decided to help him out as i was sending her back after a gathering with her friends... so we drop by where he was... thank God his father drove his lorry ... if not we would not be able to transport the car back to his home.

I guess he was rather thankful that we were all there to help him and did not leave him abandoned by the road side...

~cheers~

-Freestyler~!-

EARLY...Celebration~!

2010-09-16T23:24:00.008+08:00

::Hey bloggers... you would not imagine this happening to yourself... hahah im serious... Last night, may aunt gave a surprising call saying that the gathering due on this SATURDAY was pull forward to today... Just imagine... My family must be the 1st to do such things....hahah Early mooncake festival celebration... ahahah.....::

"THE BEGINNING OF THE DAY!!"

:: I spent the day with aunt Joey Li and Stephy Cheong::

We were obviously VERY hungry...(we could literally eat a cow..)..so Stephy and I decided to dine in at BBQ Plaza..where i surprisingly met my student there (Beh Kah Meng... Thanks for being a great waiter...soo accommodating)

and we ate ALOT!!! and I mean it when i say ALOT!!

The ever shy Miss Joey Li :)

Stephy Cheong and our abundance of FOOD!!!

(Chef Wannabe!!! :P)

*P.S. she was trying to eat but it burnt her tongue

....So... we ENDED up REALLY FULL!!! as if we were all PREGNANT!!! :) hahahah...

:: After that... We headed down to MARDI for a taste of MALAYSIAN EXPOSITION::

there we met up with Chris Hugo(Cousin brother)...who was there for the exhibition...

BUT

the main idea was to meet up with Miss Joey Li's Father who came up all the way from Teluk Intan (which she thought he would never get out from...)

::There they were (::from Left to Right:: Joey Li's Sister in law, Joey Li's Dad, Joey Li )::

::(Joey Li and Her beloved Dad)::

::(Joey Li and Her Niece)::

::Later that night... We went back to my grandma's place...you know.. for the reunion dinner...::

knowing we were the only two who were of the same age (Stephy Cheong and I) we didn't know what to do.. so i had a crazy idea and decided to experiment with my Digital-Slr

::(THIS IS OUR MASTERPIECE!! TA-DA!! )::

~Well while we were busy making art.here's a glimpse of what happened outside.HAPPENING!~

(above) :: The Candle girl!! promoting toothpaste and Candle :P

(below) :: the Chef wannabe :D

:: and here are the two caught RED-HANDED trying to BURN the house down... Hahahah::

:: Well at the end it made me realize once again that.. it is not what SPECIAL DAY it is but it is with whom that is SPECIAL that you spend the day with that makes it memorable... and this sort of things will LAST a LIFETIME!!::

~Take this flower.. if it had only ONE petal.. would it still be beautiful.... If you spent the day ALONE... would it be MEANINGFUL???~

-FreeStyler~!-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

2010-09-16T00:45:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO TWO OF MY FRIENDS...

Ng Mun Yee & Stefanie Poh

"May God shower you with Blessings"

::HOPE::

::HEALTH::

::WEALTH::

::ANYTHING ASKED FOR::

-FreeStyler~!-

Things To Express!!

2010-09-16T00:31:00.002+08:00

Why is it when ENVY is the only feeling that i express greatly when i see OTHER teenagers BONDING with their DAD's...

They seem to share MUTUAL understanding between each other

BUT

This is NOT what I'm experiencing...

The father-son BOND between me and my dad seems LONG GONE?

"Is it too LATE to repair the DAMAGES??"

"Is it ALL my fault for finding FAULTS in him??"

"Is it due to UNWILLINGNESS to FORGIVE the mistakes DONE??"

"WHY is it that he DOES NOT seem to make time to UNDERSTAND me??"

"Am I too complicated???"

I tried my BEST to save it but i FAILED greatly..

Maybe i should give up....Should I??

-FreeStyler~!-

Happy Malaysia Day!!

2010-09-16T00:19:00.002+08:00

On this very day, i wish that every race can have their inner peace and

::SHARE::

it with the rest of the world...

I also hope that WE, as MALAYSIANS will work together to

::ACHIEVE::

the goal set..which is to be

::UNITED::

so that we enables us to make

::THE WORLD A BETTER PLACE::

"salam SATU Malaysia!! & Selamat Hari Malaysia!!"

-FreeStyler~!-

Memorable Moments!!

2010-09-15T02:12:00.005+08:00

~Well where do i begin!~

::I was bored at home today and decided to go online the whole day!::

until.....

::My dearest cousin sister (Stephy Cheong) made a point to ask me out for a movie::

and yes i agreed to it...

i had quite some fun despite getting startled every now and then during the show..

the girl next to me was really irritating!!

(i mean fair enough she couldn't keep her mouth shut, Chewing "STRAWBERRY FLAVOUR" chewing gum.. she also FARTED LOUDLY)... yes she did!!!

ANYWAYS...she treated me to watch Resident Evil!!

(Milla Jovovich is HOT!!!!)

then...i got a little hungry.. so decided to pay Pappa Rich a visit...

(with Sok Fan...another cousin of mine )

(well what can you say... That girl has a big appetite)

hehehe!! :)

overall.. it was a tired YET enjoyable day :)

-Freestyler~!-

Lies!!... and More Lies!! :(

2010-09-14T00:41:00.003+08:00

the SADDEST thinG that can ever happen to me is when someone i trust LIES to my face...

"WHY???"

"HOW CAN THIS BE HAPPENING TO ME???"

"COULD THIS BE MY BATTLE OF GOD'S TEST??"

"HOW LONG WOULD THIS LAST???"

I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE..

Here is how the story goes:- (an SMS scenario)

Charaters : -

1. A: someone who is divorced and MADLY in LOVE with B

2. B: someone who is a widower.

3. C: The widower's son who knew everything (EXPERIENCED EVERY SECOND)

A: Dear, I Love you.. Good Night. Before that can i ask you something?

B: Yes, Of course..What is it?

C: (O.M.G... So disgusting for people this AGE!!!)

A: Dear, do you really love me? Like how you love your LATE wife?

B: Of course...I really love you and i will be a patient man, like I was with my late wife.

A: Really??

B: YES, I really love you.

C:( B told me that HE and A have nothing in common and doesn't LOVE A.. Because A is just a friend...)- LIE No. 1!

A: I'm just really scared that I will get hurt...

B: Don't Worry.. I know you need a MAN that is willing to SACRIFICE, LOVE and BE PATIENT with you like I was with my LATE wife..

C:(That is really Fake... Pfft...SACRIFICE,LOVE AND PATIENCES had never occured through out the LOVE life of B and HIS LATE wife!!) - LIE No. 2!

A: I know you will because my HEART tells me so.. that you will love me and I am happy to feel that i will have you for the rest of my life...

B: Ok..Good Night Dear, I love you!

C:Even more disgusted i was...with a sudden feeling of regurgitating everything because : -

He LIED about not LOVING her and tell C that A is the one that is Desperate.
He LIED about his past marriage...
He also lied about EVERYTHING to C when C trusted HIM so much!
A really does not know when to stay away.. and SHE is really acting like a real SLUT ... some Bad ass WHORE! I mean go screw other people's Husband!

:: i really felt stabbed in the heart... but then.. WHO knows but my inner SOUL::

::WHO suffers more but the carries the VOWS of SILENCE::

::WHOSE pain stains the SOULS but MINE::

-Freestyler~!-

a post for My adik Shana!!! :)

2010-09-13T11:02:00.004+08:00

~this particular post goes out to Miss Shana Shafiza..~

For being special and going thru many hard times but still managed to stay STRONG

Loads of loving from me!! :)

-FreeStyler~!-

sharing.. is ALWAYS caring!!!

2010-09-13T10:52:00.004+08:00

~heLLo bLoGGers!! it has been quite sometime since i last updated my bLog~

bt this paSt fEw moNths have had me thinking on

how i can update my bLog while CopInG with my hEcTiC sCheDuLe!!!

~sO... I haVe dEciDed to make A pIctUre BloG!!~

tHis makes sure that I gEt to sHaRe it with ALL of YOU!!!

*cHeErs!*

-FreeStyler!-

Troubles will never end :(

2010-08-17T00:52:00.002+08:00

ok... here is the deal.. What is it with people and their personal self dissatisfaction issues.. i mean come on.. GROW up... sometimes when people are down and they don't seem to be at their best... we should be helping them and not stepping on them.. We should live with a motto that when the world is in harmony, its is always a better place.. but stepping on people.. does it make you a man in whatever you do? or does it make you feel like crap...?well if you want to be a big bully then i can't stop you.. :)

Decision...

2010-06-28T03:18:00.002+08:00

sometimes in life.. decisions have to be made...

but why is it when often we regret the decisions made by ourselves.

Sometimes in life...

Choices are harder every time we meet them..

i somehow feel stupid not being able to solve them

and sometimes feel sad that when times are like this..

NO one supports you...

argghh!!! i give up!

Resposibility..

2010-05-17T01:29:00.002+08:00

Sometimes things seems easier when we observe other people doing it but then.. When we step up in the play... we seem to sacrifice a lot of things to gain this certain respect and responsibility.. Why?

It is that hard to balance two things and how does some people maintain both so well...

I suddenly feel so lost with aimless people stepping me down...

CONFUSING me with what i am suppose to do?

How come people just live an easy life stepping on to others,

I just dont understand :(

I feel like a Failure :(

2010-04-13T19:28:00.002+08:00

I think of myself as a failure for i have let go of someone so precious towards me, someone who is true to me ans i just dunno how to deal with is anymore.. i want her back so badly... i pray to God that show me the signs to get her back! i regret all those wrong doings I've done and is willing to change for the better... but why isn't it convincing enough ?? would you please... Oh lord.. i look up to you.. please :(

Happy Birthday Mummy :(

2010-04-13T11:51:00.002+08:00

If you were still alive you would have turned 49 this year.. oh.. how much i miss you but these cries only i can weep sorrowfully within for no one shares it with me :( i so miss you... being gone for so long no one knows how i felt... it was easy to say.."oh she has gone to a better place" and "Oh.. don't worry dear.. she is always there for you looking up from heaven" but reality is these word only will keep you calm only for only a moment of time... :(

"Happy Birthday mum!"

I will always love you and miss you!

Friendship..honesty and a Whole load of stuffs

2010-04-03T14:43:00.003+08:00

When we take time and think about it... we actually feel that there is more to a friendship than just being friends.. or just saying hello or just saying "hey... Let's be Friends ?" so it trigger my senses to blog about it... lets say "Facebook" for example... When we want to make friends its as simple as clicking the "add as friend'' button... but once it has been approved... do they really take the initiative to ask about you? okay... okay... reality... when it come to the real world and not the virtual world... when we start to enter the transitions form total strangers>friends>best friends and sometimes even life long partners... do they ever take time to REALLY understand you? i mean For real! Do they understand the significant of every muscle moved"? think about it then see are they you true friends... true friends tells us things we might not like to hear and things that seem to be really heart piercing but then it is always for our own good... and a friend is always there to stay when we need them :)

Happy Birthday Gor!!!

2010-03-31T03:15:00.002+08:00

Dear ,

(: Tan Soon Leong, Hayden. :)

" Happy 21st Birthday!!"

I'm extremely sorry that i couldn't be there to celebrate with you but i wish you great luck. health and prosperity... all the best on your future undertaking Gor!! :)

"Happy Birthday to you!!! Happy Birthday to you!!! Happy birthday to Soon Leong gor!!!!

Happy Birthday to you :)

Be true!

2010-03-24T00:27:00.002+08:00

Don't lie to me because you have to do so or it is just in your nature to hurt some people like that... i mean I am also a normal human being with feelings.. "YOU" consider to be my friend but then you don't understand me at all.. you are just a self-centered person who does not care bout others but only care about you yourself....please.. i know it and even more YOU know it... i might say things that hurt you.. but i realize it... i mean look at you.. YOU don't even realize your mistakes and not only say but Do things that hurt people greatly... Sometimes i question.. Do You have a heart?? Are you true to yourself?? Seriously... be honest bout yourself then judge me! Hypocrite... Just rott in Hell!

hurts like hell but who is there to care for you? Only those who really are sympathetic... i mean it... it is a world filled with cruel people who just are self centered! :(

Life is not always a bed of roses :)

2010-03-17T21:46:00.003+08:00

life as we all know has its ups and downs.. but what surprises me is that a majority of human being doesn't see that side of life :)i mean how come some psychotic people in life fill their world with hatred and full of their nuisance act.. i mean come on.. Life is Too short to to spend time on hatred... live life to the max and then take time to understand people... cherish moments with people to really build bond... i just don't get it why people discriminate other peoples life just to make them feel better? Sigh..

But anyway..

Congrats to my adik shana and Adik Firdaus on their engagement :)

May thy love last eternally

One half of me is yours, the other half yours-
Mine own, I would say; but if mine, then yours,
And so all yours!

-- William Shakespeare

(From left to right : Tan Meiling , Shana Shafiza , Firdaus yasmi, Brian)

somethings happen for a reason :)

2010-03-10T03:22:00.002+08:00

hey bloggers :0

I am back from a long hectic life away from my blog,

i was also thinking hard...REAL hard...

Why do things happen for a reason ?

Is it because GOD gives us another test to try our Faith?

Is it just GOD'd way of making sure we find out who is REAL and who is FAKE?

I think it is the second one.. sometimes we think of thing that seem simple but its exactly not as simple as seen...

well the only way i found out is through all this stuff that i see and i have passed thru...

Thanks to GOD I found out who is my Dear friends and Family :)

Can time really heal??

2010-03-03T22:19:00.002+08:00

Hey guys.. It has been over a month and i still feel the lost.. why .. i mean is it really that hard to let go... it has been just so hard for me to forget about the one that i was extremely close with and was dear with... i really could not forget her even for one day.. after her passing , a major part of me has just left me... that major part of me has just shattered and never patch back..i often ask myself.. Why is it so hard for me to forget when others can forget it so fast.? Why is it that I'm the one sensitive and not able to let go.? Why? Why?

i feel empty... more empty than ever

T.T

Simplicity at its best :)

2010-02-19T20:37:00.002+08:00

Often said in any aspects of life that less is more... and true enough.. that seems to be the scenario in life... I seriously mean it... Think about it..

I mean, After a hectic life schedule in a day...

We enjoy simple moments like what i am doing... which is sitting in a mamak shop and enjoying a cup of tea while blogging and facebook-ing .

Well.. it surely is a treat after a long hard day :)

Just to share a thought... u should try it :)

Belated New Year...Chinese New Year...

2010-02-17T21:58:00.001+08:00

Well here is how my new year went sooo far... btw.. sorry for the really belated CNY update... been quite busy... :) well enough said... more to Pictures :)

~EnJoY YoUr NeW YeAr PeOpLe!!!~

Hectiness with a whole lot of fun

2010-02-06T08:32:00.004+08:00

This past few weeks has had been a real busy busy life as i am planning to look for a part time job... friend's 21st birthday (Yan Yan!!! HAPPY BURFDAY!!! )and a whole bunch of stuff... i don'y deny that it is tiring for the whole week i've been sleeping only 2 or three hours a day.. but what motivates me to move on is the smiles i see on peoples' faces that make me decide to move on...and not feel tired about it... but seeing my friend PS falling sick really hurts me a lot... :(

There you go... this is Ah yan and me :)

Ah Yan and jamie aka my ah ma

After that dinner decided to stop by and meet up with some old friend (That's Lay Chin )

Last but Not Least.... My gor (Tan Soon Leong) ahah he was trying my spects.. kononnya wanted to look "yeng"

Happy Thaipussam.. Well actually belated :P

2010-02-01T18:19:00.005+08:00

Alright here is how i ended my January... This month started badly and i would say it kind of ended nicely...I went to Batu Caves With my friend Pravan which was actually a cool thing ..i enjoyed myself personally because it is a fun thing to know more about other races' customs :)

As we were walking towards the statue.. we saw Hindu's getting their head bald :)

~this was how crowded it was there~

The urumi gang playing their instrument to help them get the mood going

::it was once believe that this particular God loves to dance that is why music is played

~the devotees carrying limes and oranges that are pierced on their bodies ~

~this is what is unique about it..Those who are possessed by the gods (called Trans) will be dancing without knowing it~

~another example of trans~

This is an example of a kavadi carried by devotees

The strength given by the GODS to give them strength to carry the Kavadi

There you go... Pravan and I

Happy BELATED Thaipussam

randomness

2010-01-26T19:51:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggers... listening to this song makes me want to dedicate it to my late mom... i really think that its really appropriate :)

Teringat masa kecilku
kau peluk dan kau manja
Indahnya saat itu
buatku melambung
Disisimu terngiang
hangat nafas segar harum tubuhmu
Kau tuturkan segala
mimpi-mimpi serta harapanmu

Kau inginku menjadi
yang terbaik bagimu
Patuhi perintahmu
jauhkan godaan
Yang mungkin ku lakukan
dalam waktu ku beranjak dewasa
Jangan sampai membuatku
terbelenggu jatuh dan terinjak

Tuhan tolonglah
sampaikan sejuta sayangku untuknya
Ku terus berjanji
tak kan khianati pintanya

Ayah dengarlah
betapa sesungguhnya ku mencintaimu
Kan ku buktikan
ku mampu penuhi maumu

Andaikan detik itu
kan bergulir kembali
Ku rindukan suasana
basuh jiwaku
Membahagiakan aku
yang haus akan kasih dan sayangmu
Tuk wujudkan segala
sesuatu yang pernah terlewati

Being Alone Till There is No Feeling at all

2010-01-20T11:34:00.002+08:00

Dear bloggers : -

If someone doesn't understand you... then you haven't found the right one, If the person does not understands you that much.. there is no harm to let it go and then leave it as it is with no regrets what so ever.. sometimes the hardest part of breaking up is about the fear of being alone and finding a new one.. but then if we really think of it... most people think is hard to get over it.. but sometimes there is no point if the spark isn't there anymore... so therefore we must be positive and shall always make sure that there is someone behind you to catch you when u fall be it family or friends... never hide from them :)

Saying is Less Effective then Feeling it yourself..something to be thought about..

2010-01-18T22:22:00.003+08:00

These past few days i have learnt that we might say we understand each other be it Mother-to-son , Lovers or even Friends but it is nothing compared to being in their shoes and feeling exactly what they feel. People always say... "I understand How u FEEL" or "I know u Despite What i Do, I promise i Wont Do it Again" or even "I know What u have Been Through" and still they only treat it as a word of comfort but not a word of UNDERSTANDING... people sometime (like in my situation) sometimes preconceive your feelings and under estimate your ability trying to be the so-called "hero" by making though decisions in life and not bothering whether you LIKE it or NOT...or sometimes people keep making the same mistakes knowing that you despite it, or even People who criticize other people and making them feel good and not caring bout other peoples feelings.. It hurts... but we who caused it wont know it until it happens unto us.. That what my late mum use to say " What you dish out is What you get " till now i still keep it in my mind and live with this principle... if it IS my Fault I WILL ADMIT it and not say.. "I Don't Know or No..It Wasn't Me" and if i were to do something wrong.. i Would not sulk and make it seem like i'm the victim where as i will make amends to settle it and take it like a MAN...Not only that,i will also be thankful with what life has GIVEN and Respect it and do things voluntarily and Not show people that i don't like it and do sad and forced faces so that they get my attitude and live with it.. LIFE is something to learn from NOT something we SHOW OTHER PEOPLE.... SO 2010 is a NEW year... a NEW beginning... ENOUGH!!! with those hypocrites and LIARS.... i will CUT them OFF my LIFE... Bye BYe FAKERS !!!

Things For Thought

2010-01-13T20:50:00.002+08:00

Ever heard of the saying, "the OLDER the WISER" ?? i find that rather contradictory... i mean there are somethings in life older generation people learn from younger generation people right??? so... let's get back to my story.. I dropped by my old school.. and the was this particular teacher who advice me about somethings which made me think for quite sometime.. i mean she mentioned about my future... and about choosing the right person for myself so that i keep prospering and not plunging down.. i mean there was some sense in that but aren't i a little too YOUNG for this.. but befor my mum passed on she always used to tell me that ... all advice given by elders must be respected and kept dearly to make myself a better person but not let it control you fully .. Don't let it change Who you are? :) just keep it in mind yea :)

people in my life!

2010-01-10T02:39:00.002+08:00

It has been 20 years that all of a sudden it hits me in the face.. thinking that... nothing in the world could have made me live the 20 years of my life memorably but with the help of PEOPLE..

PEOPLE who CARE for me SINCERELY... PEOPLE who were ALWAYS there for me..PEOPLE who GAVE me all the STRENGTH and HOPE needed to be a MAN... PEOPLE who i could FALL BACK ONTO when i fail to achieve goals... PEOPLE who have been nothing but SINCERE, KIND and HONEST to me.. these are the people whom i will never forget... be it ALIVE or DEAD they will always remain in my memories because they MATTERED to me :) i mean it would be extremely heartless if someone were to forget who were their backbone that supported them... who were their strength when they were weak... and who were their LIGHT when they were in DARKNESS...but then heartless people normally will end up having nothing but unhappy life... i do not want that to happen to me... i want to be HAPPY... even though GOD might have taken back some of my most TREASURED people but i have to stay positive... i have to be OPTIMISTIC... i have to be STRONG... i know GOD is taking them because it is time for them to get back some LOVE that they have given out :) so i am letting all my fellow bloggers know that think of people around you and express how you feel about them as honest as you can to let them know how much he or she means to you... in fact.. do it before it is too LATE!!!!

Random thoughts!

2010-01-10T02:20:00.002+08:00

i just cant sleep.. i guess i am still running through the process of grieve.. but once it is over... i think i will be able to live life normally with minor defects... looking back at the past made me realize that people whom we thought we knew were not really who they are but more of a double headed snake... seeing things and knowing it... it made me believe that people such as Y.S are not truthful.. i mean.. how can human nowadays live a world of lies? to go through it... so hurtful? isn't it? but anyway, those are other peoples character.. all we can do is change who we are and not let the influence of outside people make us a different people.. try our best to only judge ourselves and not other :)

Knowing the feeling..

2010-01-08T19:42:00.002+08:00

We always take for granted what we have .. but when it is gone WHY do we feel so sad? we feel wasted..we feel even more depressed that the things once we took for granted is actually the thing we treasure the most. If we treasure it from the start, would you think we would feel less pain or we feel more pain?? As it is the loss of the ones we love is so painful...i feel the pain eating in my soul and this is someone i fight with, i confide in, i smile and cry with and do loads of things with... why does the other side have to take it away from me... i know you love her more... but don't you love me too?I'm so lost right now... i'm so confused... now i know i feel the feeling of a part of my heart missing..it really hurts.. how am i going to take it in ? Sometimes i just feel that i wanna die to be with the one i hurt.. it made me realize that some people are being so materialistic and that they do not even bother what other people think or feel :( when you bloggers read this, think and feel again what mistakes we all have done :(

Thanks to all :)

2010-01-05T01:28:00.001+08:00

My dear Bloggers..

as you all might have known.. my mother had a stroke on Sunday afternoon and i ask that you readers all pray for her :) please do Thanks

Happy Tiger Year

2010-01-01T11:55:00.003+08:00

its that time again where i tell people that its the year of the TIGER!! =)

Somebody please keep me sane!!

2010-01-01T09:32:00.002+08:00

I thought 2010 would be a new year... but then it is so hard to live even a PEACEFUL NEW YEAR.. when there are certain people who just can't admit their flaws and then just argue with you nonstop! i mean it is New Year. Change for the better la! I mean you keep repeating yourself and then you are always so argumentative but not admitting it! Living in lies!! Thinking that you are the greatest.*Pukes* please! we are all HUMAN.. we MAKE mistakes! we are SOMETIMES wrong ! we are all equal! Education does not mean you are a BETTER human ! Live with it, we human make mistakes and learn from it.... no!! you DON'T.... you live it and MAKE the SAME mistakes AGAIN!!!! and AGAIN!!!! Eff off la!! please!! learn from it! It is a new year!!!! anyway!!! i'm subduing...! :) well Happy New Year... Grrr!!!!:)

Happy NEW Year!!

2009-12-31T02:07:00.003+08:00

Thats right my dear Bloggers!!

Here come the time of the year when you say good bye to the old and it is in with the new.

Some people might take the initiative to make room for resolutions but i have given up on that... we never find time to fulfill it. It just makes the feeling even worse knowing that we are so useless for something that we already set up to achieve but just fails to achieve it. Each of us should know our own capability, should know our own effort placed in it :)

So in 2010 we shall all live a life being optimistic and less pessimistic ..

I wish you all

(:A life filled with Peace , Love , ANd Balance :)

Happy New Year 2010

May All Your Wishes come True

2009-12-28T23:28:00.002+08:00

The reality of life is just so unpredictable.. making it so hard for us to cope with and decipher it, It is really saddening to know that people who you think really knows you is the one who does their best to either use it to please you or use it to hurt u greatly. i just am so greatly confused.. to be sure this is what life makes of me i have decided to push out what is rotten in me and make it the best of me in the year to come. But then sometimes.. have you ever wondered how life will quality of life change if there are some people are too ignorant to admit their mistakes..or maybe some are too selfish to give in?? or even some who are terrible at making right decisions to please others?? are these all realities of life which cannot be predicted? it is killing not only me but most of us.. life is like a apple bitten by a worm..It is only rotten on one side... but we throw the whole thing away..but why can't we cut that part off and live it with ? My point is...living life will only be effectively fun if we see it positively and making it worth living...

~cheers!!~

Merry Christmas!!

2009-12-25T09:48:00.002+08:00

To all My fellow bloggers and all my friends and EVERYONE!!!!

" Merry Blessed Christmas and happy 2010!!!"

You Don't Know Yourself until Someone Points It out!

2009-12-22T18:45:00.002+08:00

People just continue to act like who they are without knowing whether what they do is accepted by other people or not. Well I'm guessing, a whole lot of things we do are mostly not accepted but then in Malaysian culture i must point out is we don't even care. Is that a good thing or a bad thing ?

If people were to not care then there would not be any changes in life right? Well lets get top the point of my post.. I began to realize that ,the time you understand yourself the most is the time someone else comes and proves you wrong and it is always a bad timing (Trust me) I can say that i guess what we feel is not necessary what others see? am i right? Well we often live in denial that once someone comments about how we are... we all get defensive. I mean it is in our human nature to be defensive..Sometimes defensiveness does not mean me despite that particular person or we do not bother about what they say.. it just means what has been said about us needs time for us to decipher .. thats all ... just a thought :)

in much pain!

2009-12-17T02:43:00.003+08:00

Im writing this for my readers to know that some poeple just doesn't know how life goes... they preconceive and misinterpretate people thinking that the only thing they do matter and the world revolves around them. I mean, for humanity sake , you are not the only one living here and NOt everything revolves around you!!! Why on earth are you making it such an issue then? tell me!! Since you think you are so righteous and apologize out of guilt.. you can stick that sorry up your ass and it doesn't even matter! its like Spilled milk!!! once done there is no return! Why bother committing the crime when you end up being sorry for, I HAVE HAD ENOUGH of TOLERATING! and I have nothing to do with you ANYMORE!!

Silence.

2009-12-07T17:11:00.002+08:00

i was taking my music exam when i was staring at these to speech impaired and was observing how they communicated...It made me realize that when we are perfect we tend to look at each others imperfections... but when we are imperfect we always bring out the perfection of each other...

I realized that when we are silent we tend to expressed more than what we should and when we speak up its almost like the sound of an empty vessel when people pretends to pay attention to you ... it really hurts feelings....

" when you are silent, you are speaking.... But when you are speaking.. you are silent... ''

A quote from the movie Talentime by the late yasmin ahmad.

decide whether u want to be silent or noisy ...

Time and Changes

2009-12-06T02:27:00.002+08:00

hey all...

After a fairly long time abandoning my blog, i've decided to blog about these past few weeks..

Life was uncertain for me as i was at a lost when it came to adapting to a new environment as my housemate had moved out. I wish him luck.

But there will always be a barrier between things that sometimes we cannot describe.. maybe it is just meant to be that way to make sure its full of interest and surprises. Sometimes change is good but sometimes it just doesn't favor you. It is what choices or changes we decide to make to live life to the fullest. :)

Life is Full of hidden surprises :)

2009-11-27T22:13:00.002+08:00

its always fun to know that life is full of challenges and that we are destined to discover each one of them if we really decide to look hard.. if we may even perfect out tiniest mistake, we would be almost perfect.

Like a saying that i have heard ;-

It's perfections that makes us Human....But it is the tiny imperfections that makes us perfect :)

it has been a while

2009-11-17T12:54:00.002+08:00

Hey folks... it has been a while, i have decided to make this post... i have not been having the time to blog due to busy schedule and long long preps for presentation..people have been really getting on my nerve...people who can't be honest about themselves , people who blame themselves and people who are not bothered bout other people's feelings. so i have decided to say:-

i just can't be bothered to entertain people who are selfishly egoistic and emotionally narcissistic and moodily dumb to act as a friend. I gave up being nice to the people who suck in all the kindness and spit it back at my face! If you think the world revolves around you and you are fu**ing smart and others are stupid. You can pack ur bags and go straight to HELL with that dumb idea of yours! F off Asshole!

Chances!!

2009-11-11T17:58:00.003+08:00

Ever wondered why things just happen for no reason at all? well in life, plenty of thing had happen in my life with no explanation at all. and guess what... i don't intend to find out either. Because life has many mysteries which is yet to be unfold and i think things should be as it is :)... well just to share something with you guys.. i was waiting for my friends and looked up the sky...just simply i did look up and discovered this... :)

Gates of heaven opening up :)

1st NOveMber..

2009-11-01T23:33:00.001+08:00

~start of a New MoNtH~

i must START working HARD

Be a Whole new ME!!!

Happy Halloween!!!

2009-10-31T21:01:00.003+08:00

Happy Halloween dear Readers!!!

My birthday (VOL2) :)

2009-10-26T22:31:00.007+08:00

~!HaPpY 20th BiRtHdAy !~

Well... this is how my birthday was...Freestyle :)

Started a week before at Barcelona (DiGi's Ultimate B'day Bash)

Food Was Delicious!!! Simple presentation to tell you!!

Guess Who i Saw!!! I was only the Lucky Few to be able to get a pic with HIM!(Joey G)

Was a Real cool Guy in person and an awesome person at his job!!

Ahh!! Not Forgetting!! hunny Madu !!!

Group Picture!!!( Me, Liang , hunny Madu)

Decided to go to The Reject Shop to get myself a cool sweater with vouchers given by DiGi :)

At the beginning i wanted the white one , couldn't Fit (biasa la...im too big :))

After long awaited moment.. My mom bought me another white one...I loved it soooo much!!! :()

For this years Bday..i had 2 cakes

This cheesecake was from Ms JV( you know who you are!!!)

Loads of love yea!!!

And the green tea cake was from Ms Ashley Ng (Teh Jing Yenn's mother)

Thank you Auntie Teh!!!

Oooo.... i even have a Red Packet...Given by Mrs Neoh!!!

Thank you Auntie...

The value inside remains a SECRET :P

On My Actual Birthday... i decided to Hang out with my Dear Baby!! <3>

and Also my mum!!!!

One spent her lifetime taking care of me and the other will be spending it with me (hoping real hard)

Below are the Best food tAsted so far!!!!

Salmon seafood spaghetti , Seafood soup and Buffalo wings:)

Baby dearest ordered Fish and Chips

and of cause i ordered Beef salad!!!

After a heavy lunch we decided to settle for a relaxing time at the pub where mum dedicated a birthday song to me!!( was completely overwhelmed )

Seafood Steamboat treated by DAD!!! yippeee!!!

And Not forgetting !!! Presents from my dear baby!!

Thank You all for making My 20th Birthday a memorable one!!!! can'T wait For the 21st Birthday!!! :)

ITs Ma Bday!!

2009-10-17T01:54:00.001+08:00

!!!!!!!HaPpY 20th BiRtHdAy to me!!!!!!!

(:a lil bit perasan :)

(:but then Finally 20 edi!!!!! :)

!!Woooooohhoooooo!!

Temporary?

2009-10-15T02:27:00.002+08:00

somethings that seem to last forever seem to never last at all, lets look at it in any aspect.. to think about it, it is kinda true, i mean you see. we don't get thins too last long. Talk about our lives for instant, we can't LIVE FOREVER... things we use ... we can't use it forever???can we??? things and humans are almost alike... we ware and tear easily.That is why we must learn to appreciate things.. stop wasting time to hat but to SPEND more time to love...Stop wasting time complaining but Plan time to make the situation better...Stop finding excuses to escape but Find time to settle it... sTop backstabbing each other but fint Space to forgive and confront... for life is almost coming to and end.. we do not know when we would die??? take this piece of advice "leave this world with no UNFINISHED BUSINESS"

cheers~

Quote of The Day!!!

2009-10-10T08:04:00.001+08:00

"Life Is Full Of Surprises!!!"

I seriously mean it... :)

I discovered my surprise... and Im loving it :)

Finally happy

2009-10-10T00:22:00.001+08:00

Its about time i let you guys on a secret, well actually not a secret at all its just what i realize after thinking real hard.LOVE as once said to be something natural is actually not at all. Love is there all the time but it takes time and encouragement to make it GROW...it's true..

Not knowing what ive lost until the day i lost it was a real eye opener for me. I realize that the girl that i love was just with me all the time :) im happy i got back with her and nothing is going to change that fact..!!!

" I LOVE YOU BABY!!!! "

LOVE.. it can make you or crush you.

2009-10-07T21:59:00.002+08:00

When LOVE was first found, it was as pure as ice and as clear as crystal but then LOVE is exactly like a crystal champagne glass. Once it is new it is as pure and as shiny as it ever was, but as things are treasured and kept a long time , it begins to turn dusty and foggy. That's when we decide to clean it again. that is exactly how relationship goes. There is no relationship that doesnt require demand.. but too much of demand isn't it leading to control??? Does being in a relationship require one to surrender the WHOLE life and CHANGE COMPLETELY to be with one another? im in a dilemma right now, how do i face this change, i can bare looking in the mirror and seeing the change. It is hurting me deep down when someone whom i love cant LOVE me for who i am. I CHanged but to my other half its not enough? im so lost!

QUotes..

2009-10-06T21:51:00.003+08:00

I was sleeping like a log the whole day and then i woke up i had this heavy head and was suffering... after a lil while , i felt much better and then i was wondering what should i do... i decided to text my baby.. hmm.. surprisingly i took her a long time to reply... and when she replied she told me..she was reading this book which quoted .

"Living in peace is SOmething we all want, But i would like to ask.. do we have the capacity of enjoying peace? If peace were here would you be able to enjoy it ? or even see it's beauty ? Or would you just find it BORING?? To me Peace , happiness, joy and life all go together. And we are able to experience them right in the present moment. It is always available to us but if we are not able to experience it, how can we make peace grow??? "

she pointed out quite a statement there and was just hoping to share it with u guys :)

Cheers :):)

Happy Birthday Ashwin!!

2009-10-01T20:33:00.002+08:00

no matter near or far... i just want you to know i will always keep you close to my heart... may GOD bless you on your Birthday!! :) (:HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!!! :)

to all who i consider dear!

2009-10-01T20:27:00.002+08:00

to all those who were sincerely there for me :) i never EVER regretted living each day of my life with you all :) thanks

"kaulah Segalanya"

Kau mahu bak segala
Cinta yang ku dahaga
Kehadiran dirimu
Menyinari maka semua hatiku

Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinari hidupku kasih
Hanya satunya
Yang kucintai

Hulur tanganmu kasih
Sambut cintaku
Jangan tinggalkan daku
Seorang diri
Tak sanggup lagi dilukai oh..

Maafkan daku
Jika salahku
Peristiwa yang pernah ku alami dulu
Aku tahu betapa pahit
Mu menerima sejarah hidupku oh..

Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinari hidupku kasih
Hanya satunya
Yang kucintai

Sambutlah cintaku
Jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
Cintaku padamu
Ikhlas sejati
Cintaku padamu
Ikhlas sejati

after exam!!! (freedom ??? i dont think soo...)

2009-09-30T02:29:00.003+08:00

After a long month of exams... i think ia sigh of relieve is let out.... but that sigh of relieve comes with a string of worries, fear anxiety and a whole lot of sadness... why ? you may ask... even i myself find this intriguing...it is like clouds circling the mountains and we see it as cloud(which only appears to be surface level) and not bothering about what lies beneath it.. (this applies very well for ALL homo sapiens )

...well i was happy to leave Kampar and was eager to see my mum and dad and not forgetting my friends... but then after watching a comedy ('Where Got Ghost ?? ') things change.. i think i shall respect that person by protecting it's identity...

It was unhappy of things i did.. i went with soon leong and my gf ... i had to choose, i tried to make him and her and IT happy and satisfied, but it turns out that no matter how hard humans try to please one another, it is just not right... there WILL be still some obvious dissatisfaction... i really don't know now... in a heavy dilemma..

to be continued..