Its that time of the year again:)

Christmas this year to me is a little depressing but that doesnt stop me from pushing myself into a pool of joy and happiness...This year i might take thing up a notch. Will try my best though... Erm well not that high a notch. hehe i hope tht these few pic of my own photography would help put you in the mood of enjoyment and hope that u will enjoy ur christmas mood ;) merry blessed christmas and a happyyyyy new year:)

30-Hour Famine

8th and 9th July 2011 marks the special occasion..

30-Hour Famine was one of UNIRAZAK Chinese Students Association (UCSA) event which lasted for 2 days and 1 night. Campers and committee were required to eat before they started the Famine. Participants were asked to fast from

10.00 am (8/7/2011) to 4 pm (9/7/2011)

[a total of 30 HOURS]

throughout the whole process, enjoyment was at its best...

Mother's Day :)

Mother's day. A day where everybody celebrates the happiness that they themselves share with their beloved mother. Every mother is a saint to their children in their own way. It is just how we acknowledge this. Sometimes for this occasion, some people tend to go to the extreme and yet their mothers are unhappy.What actually makes mothers happy is that they tend to want the simplest things in life (this is what I have learnt through time ). Every mother just wants a F-A-M-I-L-Y... (Father And Mother , I Love You) that is all actually.

Well for me this year and last year would be the hardest. Although trying to embrace this "feeling" is said to be easy, am I that weak to change? or an impact of a lost mother was a tremendous change in my life? I seriously do not know where to start. It is like i am able to help change people but yet I can't change myself. The pain of it has really lost my confidence in life. Yet I must show a stronger exterior for i must not make people weaker than me collapse with me.

A question that I tend to ask when I see ill- mannered children towards their parents. Why won't they learn? Is it because that they must have a certain loss then only they will reflect and understand? Well let it be and to all mother's out there "HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY" ..

Are you Game for it?

Personally, I thought that it has a meaning to being friends. After knowing you, my life has changed tremendously( in the worst of ways). I do not know what else is there about you that does not seem to make friends work. I have made up my mind that you should be best left in your own world.

Tell me, what really makes you hate me so much? In your own manner you despite me and talk about me based on your insecurity. Have I no dignity? Have I no pride? What you did was just hurtful and plain revengeful. I do not know how i should move on with a friend like you.

You decide.. should be friends that care or that doesn't care.

A mind filled with Emptiness..

After almost two years, I still am sitting here alone Blogging about this. How much I have began to realize as the fear of silence and loneliness begins to creep in on me. What have I gain this past year? Could it fill the loss that I've lost ? Can it replace the huge part of love that was gone from me? I suddenly feel I am no longer human.

Friends maybe something I have. They are those who show themselves when I am in darkness. Nevertheless, the boundaries are still visible even so marked with such thin lines. How am I suppose to support myself when I have a great sense of fear. When, I begin loosing everything I have once own, even my sanity.

Oh, how splendid the feeling would be when I could turn back the time and change EVERYTHING. For even that one second, I could have made a difference. How TIME messes with me ALL the time. Becoming nothing but a great Fear. Nothing but a rat race in life. NOTHING but trouble in REALITY.

xxFLASHBACKxx

What remains most clearly in my mind was the second when a dying mother looked upon his son and touched his face saying : " Please don't cry..I don't want to see you like this.. I know it is hard but please remember the cheerful part of me." and then falling into a Coma. With hope, the son was praying that she would get out from that coma..3 days later, she passed on. That broken down son was me.. How can I let something so precious to me slip away in front of my very eyes. Something that automatically ran flashbacks of memories in my head and stole all the LOVE away. How am I to pretend. I do not think I am strong enough to hold on anymore. I am going to collapse.

"My life has been filled with temporary colours, what matters is no longer here"

as for all my colours shall slowly fade into the dungeons of darkness

knowing nothing but FEAR and LONELINESS

-FreeStyler-

What is up with you?

Somehow i feel dumbfounded nowadays when i am so determined to help you

and you just throw it away like this..

i changed so much for a friend which led my relationship life to a wreck..

you still feel unappreciated..hmmph.. you really do not know how to suck it up right.

I have given you more than what a friendship can give but you still want more and take it for granted..

When will you learn?

When WILL you change?

WILL you EVER change?

I am just so tired of all this life that you have barred me from happiness.. tell me..

what have you done in your life that is right?

LEARN.. Please..Get a life..

Happy Easter!!

So.. Knowing that easter is around the corner..we (Hvoon, Chai Ying, Michelle (via SKYPE) Susan Lim and I decided to paint eggs and give them to the children...

Here is how the story goes...

Hvoon being happy with the purple egg that she had made for Michelle (YES! Purple is her FAVOURITE Colour)

(Above : The first coat of paint..)

Well we visited the nearby "mamak" stall while waiting for the eggs to dry...

When it finally dried...

(L to R : Me...Hvoon...Chai Ying)

We started our job painting... And well we were really working hard... THINKING mostly..

(Above : Chai Ying)

This is what happens when you let a young tired child who is out of ideas unattended lol..

SEE the BLURNESS..

Ta-da.... our final product.... teeheee... Loving the art... especially the fun we had...BUT

Doing it AGAIN next year might still be in consideration... lol

-FreeStyler-