I feel like a Failure :(

I think of myself as a failure for i have let go of someone so precious towards me, someone who is true to me ans i just dunno how to deal with is anymore.. i want her back so badly... i pray to God that show me the signs to get her back! i regret all those wrong doings I've done and is willing to change for the better... but why isn't it convincing enough ?? would you please... Oh lord.. i look up to you.. please :(

Happy Birthday Mummy :(

If you were still alive you would have turned 49 this year.. oh.. how much i miss you but these cries only i can weep sorrowfully within for no one shares it with me :( i so miss you... being gone for so long no one knows how i felt... it was easy to say.."oh she has gone to a better place" and "Oh.. don't worry dear.. she is always there for you looking up from heaven" but reality is these word only will keep you calm only for only a moment of time... :(

"Happy Birthday mum!"

I will always love you and miss you!

Friendship..honesty and a Whole load of stuffs

When we take time and think about it... we actually feel that there is more to a friendship than just being friends.. or just saying hello or just saying "hey... Let's be Friends ?" so it trigger my senses to blog about it... lets say "Facebook" for example... When we want to make friends its as simple as clicking the "add as friend'' button... but once it has been approved... do they really take the initiative to ask about you? okay... okay... reality... when it come to the real world and not the virtual world... when we start to enter the transitions form total strangers>friends>best friends and sometimes even life long partners... do they ever take time to REALLY understand you? i mean For real! Do they understand the significant of every muscle moved"? think about it then see are they you true friends... true friends tells us things we might not like to hear and things that seem to be really heart piercing but then it is always for our own good... and a friend is always there to stay when we need them :)