after exam!!! (freedom ??? i dont think soo...)

After a long month of exams... i think ia sigh of relieve is let out.... but that sigh of relieve comes with a string of worries, fear anxiety and a whole lot of sadness... why ? you may ask... even i myself find this intriguing...it is like clouds circling the mountains and we see it as cloud(which only appears to be surface level) and not bothering about what lies beneath it.. (this applies very well for ALL homo sapiens )

...well i was happy to leave Kampar and was eager to see my mum and dad and not forgetting my friends... but then after watching a comedy ('Where Got Ghost ?? ') things change.. i think i shall respect that person by protecting it's identity...

It was unhappy of things i did.. i went with soon leong and my gf ... i had to choose, i tried to make him and her and IT happy and satisfied, but it turns out that no matter how hard humans try to please one another, it is just not right... there WILL be still some obvious dissatisfaction... i really don't know now... in a heavy dilemma..

to be continued..

pangkor!!!

here are some pictures that show i enjoyed!!!

hmmm...

i was having a real mixed weekend, maybe its because my life is real confused... or maybe i just made it more confusing. I was enjoying myself in Pangkor with family while i was missing my baby who was studying... i love her so much... ok ok back to the story, i was enjoying myself and behind my back i was really blur about things that were happening. These incidents made me realize that being nice to people must have its' limitation.i gave up trying to be nice to people but end up being ignored and left hanging and deserted in an island. that was what some people made me feel. i mean if you dont have the guts then dont do it... but my friends and people who know me would truly understand that i like being confronted to the face and i hate people who pretend. it might hurt but it will make me stronger but then in life i have decided to stop being nice to other people and start being selfish once on a while. im sick and tired of caring deeply for those who hardly even give a shit about other people. :( that is all i feel like blurting out to u guys :) thankx for being there listening to all my rubbish.

A feeling...

Im here to open up my true feelings...

there are a few category of people that i truely love in my life

1~ my Family(family 1st)

2~my girlfriend ( my baby )

3~My adik angkats and my friends..

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so lets get to the point...

it must be the power of love.. that only the people mentioned in thesse groups really make an impact in my life... i have known this guy MAtt... he was my junior... i ask him to be my ADik angkat and he agreed... i was happy ... and like any brother would do was to take care of him as m siblings but then as time went by , a certain Event had occured that really pestered his life greatly, i was sad too cause it was seldom that i feel empathy for him or anyone in that matter, i was trying my best to comfort him but then as he felt better.. i was being pushed aside.. i was extremely hurt when i found out that he was sorta pushing his anger towards me.. so i gave him his space and for almost two weeks or more that i have had sleepless night thinking wether what had went wrong and whether he was fine... i was really worried... was really am... if ive done anything wrong to anyone, i ask of u all for forgiveness and then if you all do i would be free of sinful debts. :S i really dunno

i just wished that life was like a time machine.. so that i was able to go back in time to set and make things right :)

new beginning...

have you ever wonder why people fight , why things happen, we always say thingd happen for a reason and we know that this saying might or might not be true because it depends on individual interest.... so a lesson that i have learnt is that every bad ending comes with a new happy beginning... i have went thru it and i realize that we always see he negative side of things until we really know and understand why these things happen... sheesh... well we all have to learn the hard way ... :P