A day filled with excitement

Well I started my day by taking 2 separate buses to Uni and entered a meeting. An proud o myself though to live a day with NO car... Lol so after that i entered class and enjoyed a slight debate. Besides that waited to have dinner with college mates and we certainly had fun. Ahaha all the food oh dear!! After that michelle,susan and i decided to walk to Sunway Pyramid for a movie..大英雄，小男人:) later will be walking back to complete assignment... Its going to be a longggggg night!!

Its that time of the year again:)

Christmas this year to me is a little depressing but that doesnt stop me from pushing myself into a pool of joy and happiness...This year i might take thing up a notch. Will try my best though... Erm well not that high a notch. hehe i hope tht these few pic of my own photography would help put you in the mood of enjoyment and hope that u will enjoy ur christmas mood ;) merry blessed christmas and a happyyyyy new year:)

30-Hour Famine

8th and 9th July 2011 marks the special occasion..

30-Hour Famine was one of UNIRAZAK Chinese Students Association (UCSA) event which lasted for 2 days and 1 night. Campers and committee were required to eat before they started the Famine. Participants were asked to fast from

10.00 am (8/7/2011) to 4 pm (9/7/2011)

[a total of 30 HOURS]

throughout the whole process, enjoyment was at its best...

Mother's Day :)

Mother's day. A day where everybody celebrates the happiness that they themselves share with their beloved mother. Every mother is a saint to their children in their own way. It is just how we acknowledge this. Sometimes for this occasion, some people tend to go to the extreme and yet their mothers are unhappy.What actually makes mothers happy is that they tend to want the simplest things in life (this is what I have learnt through time ). Every mother just wants a F-A-M-I-L-Y... (Father And Mother , I Love You) that is all actually.

Well for me this year and last year would be the hardest. Although trying to embrace this "feeling" is said to be easy, am I that weak to change? or an impact of a lost mother was a tremendous change in my life? I seriously do not know where to start. It is like i am able to help change people but yet I can't change myself. The pain of it has really lost my confidence in life. Yet I must show a stronger exterior for i must not make people weaker than me collapse with me.

A question that I tend to ask when I see ill- mannered children towards their parents. Why won't they learn? Is it because that they must have a certain loss then only they will reflect and understand? Well let it be and to all mother's out there "HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY" ..

Are you Game for it?

Personally, I thought that it has a meaning to being friends. After knowing you, my life has changed tremendously( in the worst of ways). I do not know what else is there about you that does not seem to make friends work. I have made up my mind that you should be best left in your own world.

Tell me, what really makes you hate me so much? In your own manner you despite me and talk about me based on your insecurity. Have I no dignity? Have I no pride? What you did was just hurtful and plain revengeful. I do not know how i should move on with a friend like you.

You decide.. should be friends that care or that doesn't care.

A mind filled with Emptiness..

After almost two years, I still am sitting here alone Blogging about this. How much I have began to realize as the fear of silence and loneliness begins to creep in on me. What have I gain this past year? Could it fill the loss that I've lost ? Can it replace the huge part of love that was gone from me? I suddenly feel I am no longer human.

Friends maybe something I have. They are those who show themselves when I am in darkness. Nevertheless, the boundaries are still visible even so marked with such thin lines. How am I suppose to support myself when I have a great sense of fear. When, I begin loosing everything I have once own, even my sanity.

Oh, how splendid the feeling would be when I could turn back the time and change EVERYTHING. For even that one second, I could have made a difference. How TIME messes with me ALL the time. Becoming nothing but a great Fear. Nothing but a rat race in life. NOTHING but trouble in REALITY.

xxFLASHBACKxx

What remains most clearly in my mind was the second when a dying mother looked upon his son and touched his face saying : " Please don't cry..I don't want to see you like this.. I know it is hard but please remember the cheerful part of me." and then falling into a Coma. With hope, the son was praying that she would get out from that coma..3 days later, she passed on. That broken down son was me.. How can I let something so precious to me slip away in front of my very eyes. Something that automatically ran flashbacks of memories in my head and stole all the LOVE away. How am I to pretend. I do not think I am strong enough to hold on anymore. I am going to collapse.

"My life has been filled with temporary colours, what matters is no longer here"

as for all my colours shall slowly fade into the dungeons of darkness

knowing nothing but FEAR and LONELINESS

-FreeStyler-

What is up with you?

Somehow i feel dumbfounded nowadays when i am so determined to help you

and you just throw it away like this..

i changed so much for a friend which led my relationship life to a wreck..

you still feel unappreciated..hmmph.. you really do not know how to suck it up right.

I have given you more than what a friendship can give but you still want more and take it for granted..

When will you learn?

When WILL you change?

WILL you EVER change?

I am just so tired of all this life that you have barred me from happiness.. tell me..

what have you done in your life that is right?

LEARN.. Please..Get a life..

Happy Easter!!

So.. Knowing that easter is around the corner..we (Hvoon, Chai Ying, Michelle (via SKYPE) Susan Lim and I decided to paint eggs and give them to the children...

Here is how the story goes...

Hvoon being happy with the purple egg that she had made for Michelle (YES! Purple is her FAVOURITE Colour)

(Above : The first coat of paint..)

Well we visited the nearby "mamak" stall while waiting for the eggs to dry...

When it finally dried...

(L to R : Me...Hvoon...Chai Ying)

We started our job painting... And well we were really working hard... THINKING mostly..

(Above : Chai Ying)

This is what happens when you let a young tired child who is out of ideas unattended lol..

SEE the BLURNESS..

Ta-da.... our final product.... teeheee... Loving the art... especially the fun we had...BUT

Doing it AGAIN next year might still be in consideration... lol

-FreeStyler-

Fight for?

What do we fight for?

Goals?Satisfaction? or.. getting hurt?

....

(go figure)

You say you've changed but how much?

cheating others? Lying about it?

....

We all want to trust people...

Who? How?

Are they really trustworthy?

....

Frequent problem faced

my current emotion :(

Feeling broken
Barely holding on
But there’s just something so strong
Somewhere inside me
And I am down but I’ll get up again
Don’t count me out just yet

I’ve been brought down to my knees
And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I’ll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven’t seen the last of me
You haven’t seen the last of me

They can say that
I won’t stay around
But I’m gonna stand my ground
You’re not gonna stop me
You don’t know me
You don’t know who I am
Don’t count me out so fast

I’ve been brought down to my knees
And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I’ll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven’t seen the last of me

There will be no fade out
This is not the end
I’m down now
But i’ll be standing tall again
Times are hard but
I was built tough
I’m gonna show you all what I’m made of

I’ve been brought down to my knees
And I’ve been pushed way past the point of breaking
But I can take it
I’ll be back
Back on my feet
This is far from over
I am far from over
You haven’t seen the last of me

No no
I’m not going nowhere
I’m staying right here
Oh no
You won’t see me begging
I’m not taking my bow
Can’t stop me
It’s not the end
You haven’t seen the last of me
Oh no
You haven’t seen the last of me
You haven’t seen the last of me

Marriage Humor （婚姻幽默）

Wife: 'What are you doing?'
妻：你在作什麼啊？
Husband : Nothing.
夫：沒作什麼。
Wife : 'Nothing...? You've been reading our marriage certificate for an hour.'
妻：沒作什麼？你看著我們的結婚證書，足足有一小時了。
Husband : 'I was looking for the expiry date.'
夫：我在尋找它的有效日期是到什麼時候。
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Wife : 'Do you want dinner?'
妻： 要吃晚餐嗎？
Husband : 'Sure! What are my choices?'
夫： 當然！我可以選擇嗎？
Wife : 'Yes or no.'
妻：要或不要。
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Wife: 'You always carry my photo in your wallet. Why?'
妻：為什麼你經常把我的照片放在你皮夾裡？
Hubby: 'When there is a problem, no matter how impossible, I look at your picture and the problem disappears.'
夫：當問題發生時，不管有多困難，我看著妳照片就迎刃而解了。
Wife: 'You see how miraculous and powerful I am for you!'
妻：你看我對你有多麼驚人的影響力啊！
Hubby: 'Yes! I see your picture and ask myself what other problem can there be greater than this one?'
夫：是啊！望著妳的照片我問自己，還有什麼困難比這個來得大呢？
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Stress Reliever Girl: 'When we get married, I want to share all your worries, troubles and lighten your burden.'
女孩：婚後我要分擔你所有的煩惱、困擾，以減輕你的負擔。
Boy: 'It's very kind of you, darling, but I don't have any worries or troubles.'
男孩：親愛的，妳真體貼，但我並沒有任何煩惱或困擾。
Girl: 'Well that's because we aren't married yet.'
女孩：哦？那是因為我們還沒結婚的緣故。
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Son: ' Mom, when I was on the bus with Dad this morning, he told me to give up my seat to a lady.'
子：今早我和爹地一起搭車，他要我讓座給一位女士。
Mom: 'Well, you have done the right thing.'
母：嗯，你這麼做是對的。
Son: 'But mom, I was sitting on daddy's lap.'
子：但是，媽，我當時是坐在爹地的腿上呢。
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A newly married man asked his wife, 'Would you have married me if my father hadn't left me a fortune?'
一位新婚的先生問他太太：如果我父親沒留下巨額財產給我，你會嫁給我嗎？
'Honey,' the woman replied sweetly, 'I'd have married you, N O =ATTER WHO LEFT YOU A FORTUNE!'
女人溫柔的答道：親愛的，不管是誰留下財產給你，我都會嫁給你的。

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Girl to her boyfriend: One kiss and I'll be yours forever .
女孩對著男友說：吻我一下，我就永遠屬於你了。
The guy replies: 'Thanks for the early warning.'
男孩回道：謝謝您提早警告我。
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A wife asked her husband: 'What do you like most in me, my pretty face or my sexy body?'
妻問夫：你最喜歡我哪一點？我美麗的臉龐，還是我性感的軀體？
He looked at her from head to toe and replied: 'I like your sense of humor.'
他把她從頭到腳瀏覽了一遍，回道：我喜歡你的幽默。

Marriage Humor （婚姻幽默）

Wife: 'What are you doing?'
妻：你在作什麼啊？
Husband : Nothing.
夫：沒作什麼。
Wife : 'Nothing...? You've been reading our marriage certificate for an hour.'
妻：沒作什麼？你看著我們的結婚證書，足足有一小時了。
Husband : 'I was looking for the expiry date.'
夫：我在尋找它的有效日期是到什麼時候。
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Wife : 'Do you want dinner?'
妻： 要吃晚餐嗎？
Husband : 'Sure! What are my choices?'
夫： 當然！我可以選擇嗎？
Wife : 'Yes or no.'
妻：要或不要。
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Wife: 'You always carry my photo in your wallet. Why?'
妻：為什麼你經常把我的照片放在你皮夾裡？
Hubby: 'When there is a problem, no matter how impossible, I look at your picture and the problem disappears.'
夫：當問題發生時，不管有多困難，我看著妳照片就迎刃而解了。
Wife: 'You see how miraculous and powerful I am for you!'
妻：你看我對你有多麼驚人的影響力啊！
Hubby: 'Yes! I see your picture and ask myself what other problem can there be greater than this one?'
夫：是啊！望著妳的照片我問自己，還有什麼困難比這個來得大呢？
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Stress Reliever Girl: 'When we get married, I want to share all your worries, troubles and lighten your burden.'
女孩：婚後我要分擔你所有的煩惱、困擾，以減輕你的負擔。
Boy: 'It's very kind of you, darling, but I don't have any worries or troubles.'
男孩：親愛的，妳真體貼，但我並沒有任何煩惱或困擾。
Girl: 'Well that's because we aren't married yet.'
女孩：哦？那是因為我們還沒結婚的緣故。
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Son: ' Mom, when I was on the bus with Dad this morning, he told me to give up my seat to a lady.'
子：今早我和爹地一起搭車，他要我讓座給一位女士。
Mom: 'Well, you have done the right thing.'
母：嗯，你這麼做是對的。
Son: 'But mom, I was sitting on daddy's lap.'
子：但是，媽，我當時是坐在爹地的腿上呢。
_____________________________________________________________

A newly married man asked his wife, 'Would you have married me if my father hadn't left me a fortune?'
一位新婚的先生問他太太：如果我父親沒留下巨額財產給我，你會嫁給我嗎？
'Honey,' the woman replied sweetly, 'I'd have married you, N O =ATTER WHO LEFT YOU A FORTUNE!'
女人溫柔的答道：親愛的，不管是誰留下財產給你，我都會嫁給你的。

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Girl to her boyfriend: One kiss and I'll be yours forever .
女孩對著男友說：吻我一下，我就永遠屬於你了。
The guy replies: 'Thanks for the early warning.'
男孩回道：謝謝您提早警告我。
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A wife asked her husband: 'What do you like most in me, my pretty face or my sexy body?'
妻問夫：你最喜歡我哪一點？我美麗的臉龐，還是我性感的軀體？
He looked at her from head to toe and replied: 'I like your sense of humor.'
他把她從頭到腳瀏覽了一遍，回道：我喜歡你的幽默。

Believing in yourself :)

It has been a while since I blogged, I find it facinating that there is confusion

BETWEEN

believing and trusting,

The two might sound similar but then yet they are different in their own way.

Life has two sides just like a coin.

we never know whether we should trust or believe.

My opinion is we should Trust because we love, believe because we do.

All in all it comes to what really comes from the heart.

the end of the memories based on a bad experience

Here i am blogging after so long..

so this time its going to be a story from a different approach. Maybe i am not the best or maybe i am not the greatest person there is, but it does not mean that we allow our judgement to be as cruel as from what we pass before in our life. Many let the concept of "one bad apple spoils the whole basket". I personally don't deny the fact that i don't like it. but dun just walk out of my life without telling a single thing. I have feelings but maybe you are still young and that you are the eldest so you might not know how to understand people yet. I will definitely not clip your wings and will let you go with your perception. I hope this blog will mean alot to you.

i hope that you leave me with the best i ever taught you as a friend and as a father. I also hope that maybe me gone will help you discover your real self and make sure that it is worth it.

I pray the best for you. take care.

-Loudao-

help from people whom i love..and loves me

hey guys.. in life i did some thinking and decided to post this up.. :)I REALISED THAT THOSE WHO REALLY CARE FOR ME ARE THOSE WHO ACTUALLY TAKE THE TIME TO ASK:.Im thAnkful for this peRson..My daughTeR..ThANk you

New Year New beginning:)

Some beginnings are great just as if it was what we wished for to last a lifetime.... but then don't you think we should really be realistic.? We faced years after years making resolutions that we never tend do keep... and promises that are easily forgotten..

"What will Make 2011 DIFFERENT??"

I know what... our character.. our attitude... our motive...

So think positively and things will grow your way....

Smile more often to cheer up peoples day :)