randomness

Dear bloggers... listening to this song makes me want to dedicate it to my late mom... i really think that its really appropriate :)

Teringat masa kecilku
kau peluk dan kau manja
Indahnya saat itu
buatku melambung
Disisimu terngiang
hangat nafas segar harum tubuhmu
Kau tuturkan segala
mimpi-mimpi serta harapanmu

Kau inginku menjadi
yang terbaik bagimu
Patuhi perintahmu
jauhkan godaan
Yang mungkin ku lakukan
dalam waktu ku beranjak dewasa
Jangan sampai membuatku
terbelenggu jatuh dan terinjak

Tuhan tolonglah
sampaikan sejuta sayangku untuknya
Ku terus berjanji
tak kan khianati pintanya

Ayah dengarlah
betapa sesungguhnya ku mencintaimu
Kan ku buktikan
ku mampu penuhi maumu


Andaikan detik itu
kan bergulir kembali
Ku rindukan suasana
basuh jiwaku
Membahagiakan aku
yang haus akan kasih dan sayangmu
Tuk wujudkan segala
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Being Alone Till There is No Feeling at all

Dear bloggers : -

If someone doesn't understand you... then you haven't found the right one, If the person does not understands you that much.. there is no harm to let it go and then leave it as it is with no regrets what so ever.. sometimes the hardest part of breaking up is about the fear of being alone and finding a new one.. but then if we really think of it... most people think is hard to get over it.. but sometimes there is no point if the spark isn't there anymore... so therefore we must be positive and shall always make sure that there is someone behind you to catch you when u fall be it family or friends... never hide from them :)

Saying is Less Effective then Feeling it yourself..something to be thought about..

These past few days i have learnt that we might say we understand each other be it Mother-to-son , Lovers or even Friends but it is nothing compared to being in their shoes and feeling exactly what they feel. People always say... "I understand How u FEEL" or "I know u Despite What i Do, I promise i Wont Do it Again" or even "I know What u have Been Through" and still they only treat it as a word of comfort but not a word of UNDERSTANDING... people sometime (like in my situation) sometimes preconceive your feelings and under estimate your ability trying to be the so-called "hero" by making though decisions in life and not bothering whether you LIKE it or NOT...or sometimes people keep making the same mistakes knowing that you despite it, or even People who criticize other people and making them feel good and not caring bout other peoples feelings.. It hurts... but we who caused it wont know it until it happens unto us.. That what my late mum use to say " What you dish out is What you get " till now i still keep it in my mind and live with this principle... if it IS my Fault I WILL ADMIT it and not say.. "I Don't Know or No..It Wasn't Me" and if i were to do something wrong.. i Would not sulk and make it seem like i'm the victim where as i will make amends to settle it and take it like a MAN...Not only that,i will also be thankful with what life has GIVEN and Respect it and do things voluntarily and Not show people that i don't like it and do sad and forced faces so that they get my attitude and live with it.. LIFE is something to learn from NOT something we SHOW OTHER PEOPLE.... SO 2010 is a NEW year... a NEW beginning... ENOUGH!!! with those hypocrites and LIARS.... i will CUT them OFF my LIFE... Bye BYe FAKERS !!!

Things For Thought

Ever heard of the saying, "the OLDER the WISER" ?? i find that rather contradictory... i mean there are somethings in life older generation people learn from younger generation people right??? so... let's get back to my story.. I dropped by my old school.. and the was this particular teacher who advice me about somethings which made me think for quite sometime.. i mean she mentioned about my future... and about choosing the right person for myself so that i keep prospering and not plunging down.. i mean there was some sense in that but aren't i a little too YOUNG for this.. but befor my mum passed on she always used to tell me that ... all advice given by elders must be respected and kept dearly to make myself a better person but not let it control you fully .. Don't let it change Who you are? :) just keep it in mind yea :)

people in my life!

It has been 20 years that all of a sudden it hits me in the face.. thinking that... nothing in the world could have made me live the 20 years of my life memorably but with the help of PEOPLE..

PEOPLE who CARE for me SINCERELY... PEOPLE who were ALWAYS there for me..PEOPLE who GAVE me all the STRENGTH and HOPE needed to be a MAN... PEOPLE who i could FALL BACK ONTO when i fail to achieve goals... PEOPLE who have been nothing but SINCERE, KIND and HONEST to me.. these are the people whom i will never forget... be it ALIVE or DEAD they will always remain in my memories because they MATTERED to me :) i mean it would be extremely heartless if someone were to forget who were their backbone that supported them... who were their strength when they were weak... and who were their LIGHT when they were in DARKNESS...but then heartless people normally will end up having nothing but unhappy life... i do not want that to happen to me... i want to be HAPPY... even though GOD might have taken back some of my most TREASURED people but i have to stay positive... i have to be OPTIMISTIC... i have to be STRONG... i know GOD is taking them because it is time for them to get back some LOVE that they have given out :) so i am letting all my fellow bloggers know that think of people around you and express how you feel about them as honest as you can to let them know how much he or she means to you... in fact.. do it before it is too LATE!!!!

Random thoughts!

i just cant sleep.. i guess i am still running through the process of grieve.. but once it is over... i think i will be able to live life normally with minor defects... looking back at the past made me realize that people whom we thought we knew were not really who they are but more of a double headed snake... seeing things and knowing it... it made me believe that people such as Y.S are not truthful.. i mean.. how can human nowadays live a world of lies? to go through it... so hurtful? isn't it? but anyway, those are other peoples character.. all we can do is change who we are and not let the influence of outside people make us a different people.. try our best to only judge ourselves and not other :)

Knowing the feeling..

We always take for granted what we have .. but when it is gone WHY do we feel so sad? we feel wasted..we feel even more depressed that the things once we took for granted is actually the thing we treasure the most. If we treasure it from the start, would you think we would feel less pain or we feel more pain?? As it is the loss of the ones we love is so painful...i feel the pain eating in my soul and this is someone i fight with, i confide in, i smile and cry with and do loads of things with... why does the other side have to take it away from me... i know you love her more... but don't you love me too?I'm so lost right now... i'm so confused... now i know i feel the feeling of a part of my heart missing..it really hurts.. how am i going to take it in ? Sometimes i just feel that i wanna die to be with the one i hurt.. it made me realize that some people are being so materialistic and that they do not even bother what other people think or feel :( when you bloggers read this, think and feel again what mistakes we all have done :(

Thanks to all :)

My dear Bloggers..

as you all might have known.. my mother had a stroke on Sunday afternoon and i ask that you readers all pray for her :) please do Thanks

Happy Tiger Year

its that time again where i tell people that its the year of the TIGER!! =)

Somebody please keep me sane!!

I thought 2010 would be a new year... but then it is so hard to live even a PEACEFUL NEW YEAR.. when there are certain people who just can't admit their flaws and then just argue with you nonstop! i mean it is New Year. Change for the better la! I mean you keep repeating yourself and then you are always so argumentative but not admitting it! Living in lies!! Thinking that you are the greatest.*Pukes* please! we are all HUMAN.. we MAKE mistakes! we are SOMETIMES wrong ! we are all equal! Education does not mean you are a BETTER human ! Live with it, we human make mistakes and learn from it.... no!! you DON'T.... you live it and MAKE the SAME mistakes AGAIN!!!! and AGAIN!!!! Eff off la!! please!! learn from it! It is a new year!!!! anyway!!! i'm subduing...! :) well Happy New Year... Grrr!!!!:)