Happy NEW Year!!

Thats right my dear Bloggers!!

Here come the time of the year when you say good bye to the old and it is in with the new.

Some people might take the initiative to make room for resolutions but i have given up on that... we never find time to fulfill it. It just makes the feeling even worse knowing that we are so useless for something that we already set up to achieve but just fails to achieve it. Each of us should know our own capability, should know our own effort placed in it :)

So in 2010 we shall all live a life being optimistic and less pessimistic ..

I wish you all

(:A life filled with Peace , Love , ANd Balance :)

Happy New Year 2010

May All Your Wishes come True

The reality of life is just so unpredictable.. making it so hard for us to cope with and decipher it, It is really saddening to know that people who you think really knows you is the one who does their best to either use it to please you or use it to hurt u greatly. i just am so greatly confused.. to be sure this is what life makes of me i have decided to push out what is rotten in me and make it the best of me in the year to come. But then sometimes.. have you ever wondered how life will quality of life change if there are some people are too ignorant to admit their mistakes..or maybe some are too selfish to give in?? or even some who are terrible at making right decisions to please others?? are these all realities of life which cannot be predicted? it is killing not only me but most of us.. life is like a apple bitten by a worm..It is only rotten on one side... but we throw the whole thing away..but why can't we cut that part off and live it with ? My point is...living life will only be effectively fun if we see it positively and making it worth living...

~cheers!!~

Merry Christmas!!

To all My fellow bloggers and all my friends and EVERYONE!!!!

" Merry Blessed Christmas and happy 2010!!!"

You Don't Know Yourself until Someone Points It out!

People just continue to act like who they are without knowing whether what they do is accepted by other people or not. Well I'm guessing, a whole lot of things we do are mostly not accepted but then in Malaysian culture i must point out is we don't even care. Is that a good thing or a bad thing ?

If people were to not care then there would not be any changes in life right? Well lets get top the point of my post.. I began to realize that ,the time you understand yourself the most is the time someone else comes and proves you wrong and it is always a bad timing (Trust me) I can say that i guess what we feel is not necessary what others see? am i right? Well we often live in denial that once someone comments about how we are... we all get defensive. I mean it is in our human nature to be defensive..Sometimes defensiveness does not mean me despite that particular person or we do not bother about what they say.. it just means what has been said about us needs time for us to decipher .. thats all ... just a thought :)

in much pain!

Im writing this for my readers to know that some poeple just doesn't know how life goes... they preconceive and misinterpretate people thinking that the only thing they do matter and the world revolves around them. I mean, for humanity sake , you are not the only one living here and NOt everything revolves around you!!! Why on earth are you making it such an issue then? tell me!! Since you think you are so righteous and apologize out of guilt.. you can stick that sorry up your ass and it doesn't even matter! its like Spilled milk!!! once done there is no return! Why bother committing the crime when you end up being sorry for, I HAVE HAD ENOUGH of TOLERATING! and I have nothing to do with you ANYMORE!!

Silence.

i was taking my music exam when i was staring at these to speech impaired and was observing how they communicated...It made me realize that when we are perfect we tend to look at each others imperfections... but when we are imperfect we always bring out the perfection of each other...

I realized that when we are silent we tend to expressed more than what we should and when we speak up its almost like the sound of an empty vessel when people pretends to pay attention to you ... it really hurts feelings....

" when you are silent, you are speaking.... But when you are speaking.. you are silent... ''

A quote from the movie Talentime by the late yasmin ahmad.

decide whether u want to be silent or noisy ...

Time and Changes

hey all...

After a fairly long time abandoning my blog, i've decided to blog about these past few weeks..

Life was uncertain for me as i was at a lost when it came to adapting to a new environment as my housemate had moved out. I wish him luck.

But there will always be a barrier between things that sometimes we cannot describe.. maybe it is just meant to be that way to make sure its full of interest and surprises. Sometimes change is good but sometimes it just doesn't favor you. It is what choices or changes we decide to make to live life to the fullest. :)

Life is Full of hidden surprises :)

its always fun to know that life is full of challenges and that we are destined to discover each one of them if we really decide to look hard.. if we may even perfect out tiniest mistake, we would be almost perfect.

Like a saying that i have heard ;-

"

It's perfections that makes us Human....But it is the tiny imperfections that makes us perfect :)

"

it has been a while

Hey folks... it has been a while, i have decided to make this post... i have not been having the time to blog due to busy schedule and long long preps for presentation..people have been really getting on my nerve...people who can't be honest about themselves , people who blame themselves and people who are not bothered bout other people's feelings. so i have decided to say:-

"

i just can't be bothered to entertain people who are selfishly egoistic and emotionally narcissistic and moodily dumb to act as a friend. I gave up being nice to the people who suck in all the kindness and spit it back at my face! If you think the world revolves around you and you are fu**ing smart and others are stupid. You can pack ur bags and go straight to HELL with that dumb idea of yours! F off Asshole!

"

Chances!!

Ever wondered why things just happen for no reason at all? well in life, plenty of thing had happen in my life with no explanation at all. and guess what... i don't intend to find out either. Because life has many mysteries which is yet to be unfold and i think things should be as it is :)... well just to share something with you guys.. i was waiting for my friends and looked up the sky...just simply i did look up and discovered this... :)

Gates of heaven opening up :)

1st NOveMber..

~start of a New MoNtH~

i must START working HARD

Be a Whole new ME!!!

Happy Halloween!!!

Happy Halloween dear Readers!!!

My birthday (VOL2) :)

~!HaPpY 20th BiRtHdAy !~

Well... this is how my birthday was...Freestyle :)

Started a week before at Barcelona (DiGi's Ultimate B'day Bash)

Food Was Delicious!!! Simple presentation to tell you!!

Guess Who i Saw!!! I was only the Lucky Few to be able to get a pic with HIM!(Joey G)

Was a Real cool Guy in person and an awesome person at his job!!

Ahh!! Not Forgetting!! hunny Madu !!!

Group Picture!!!( Me, Liang , hunny Madu)

Decided to go to The Reject Shop to get myself a cool sweater with vouchers given by DiGi :)

At the beginning i wanted the white one , couldn't Fit (biasa la...im too big :))

After long awaited moment.. My mom bought me another white one...I loved it soooo much!!! :()

For this years Bday..i had 2 cakes

This cheesecake was from Ms JV( you know who you are!!!)

Loads of love yea!!!

And the green tea cake was from Ms Ashley Ng (Teh Jing Yenn's mother)

Thank you Auntie Teh!!!

Oooo.... i even have a Red Packet...Given by Mrs Neoh!!!

Thank you Auntie...

The value inside remains a SECRET :P

On My Actual Birthday... i decided to Hang out with my Dear Baby!! <3>

and Also my mum!!!!

One spent her lifetime taking care of me and the other will be spending it with me (hoping real hard)

Below are the Best food tAsted so far!!!!

Salmon seafood spaghetti , Seafood soup and Buffalo wings:)

Baby dearest ordered Fish and Chips

and of cause i ordered Beef salad!!!

After a heavy lunch we decided to settle for a relaxing time at the pub where mum dedicated a birthday song to me!!( was completely overwhelmed )

Seafood Steamboat treated by DAD!!! yippeee!!!

And Not forgetting !!! Presents from my dear baby!!

Thank You all for making My 20th Birthday a memorable one!!!! can'T wait For the 21st Birthday!!! :)

ITs Ma Bday!!

!!!!!!!HaPpY 20th BiRtHdAy to me!!!!!!!

(:a lil bit perasan :)

(:but then Finally 20 edi!!!!! :)

!!Woooooohhoooooo!!

Temporary?

somethings that seem to last forever seem to never last at all, lets look at it in any aspect.. to think about it, it is kinda true, i mean you see. we don't get thins too last long. Talk about our lives for instant, we can't LIVE FOREVER... things we use ... we can't use it forever???can we??? things and humans are almost alike... we ware and tear easily.That is why we must learn to appreciate things.. stop wasting time to hat but to SPEND more time to love...Stop wasting time complaining but Plan time to make the situation better...Stop finding excuses to escape but Find time to settle it... sTop backstabbing each other but fint Space to forgive and confront... for life is almost coming to and end.. we do not know when we would die??? take this piece of advice "leave this world with no UNFINISHED BUSINESS"

cheers~

Quote of The Day!!!

"Life Is Full Of Surprises!!!"

I seriously mean it... :)

I discovered my surprise... and Im loving it :)

Finally happy

Its about time i let you guys on a secret, well actually not a secret at all its just what i realize after thinking real hard.LOVE as once said to be something natural is actually not at all. Love is there all the time but it takes time and encouragement to make it GROW...it's true..

Not knowing what ive lost until the day i lost it was a real eye opener for me. I realize that the girl that i love was just with me all the time :) im happy i got back with her and nothing is going to change that fact..!!!

" I LOVE YOU BABY!!!! "

LOVE.. it can make you or crush you.

When LOVE was first found, it was as pure as ice and as clear as crystal but then LOVE is exactly like a crystal champagne glass. Once it is new it is as pure and as shiny as it ever was, but as things are treasured and kept a long time , it begins to turn dusty and foggy. That's when we decide to clean it again. that is exactly how relationship goes. There is no relationship that doesnt require demand.. but too much of demand isn't it leading to control??? Does being in a relationship require one to surrender the WHOLE life and CHANGE COMPLETELY to be with one another? im in a dilemma right now, how do i face this change, i can bare looking in the mirror and seeing the change. It is hurting me deep down when someone whom i love cant LOVE me for who i am. I CHanged but to my other half its not enough? im so lost!

QUotes..

I was sleeping like a log the whole day and then i woke up i had this heavy head and was suffering... after a lil while , i felt much better and then i was wondering what should i do... i decided to text my baby.. hmm.. surprisingly i took her a long time to reply... and when she replied she told me..she was reading this book which quoted .

"Living in peace is SOmething we all want, But i would like to ask.. do we have the capacity of enjoying peace? If peace were here would you be able to enjoy it ? or even see it's beauty ? Or would you just find it BORING?? To me Peace , happiness, joy and life all go together. And we are able to experience them right in the present moment. It is always available to us but if we are not able to experience it, how can we make peace grow??? "

she pointed out quite a statement there and was just hoping to share it with u guys :)

Cheers :):)

Happy Birthday Ashwin!!

no matter near or far... i just want you to know i will always keep you close to my heart... may GOD bless you on your Birthday!! :) (:HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!!! :)

to all who i consider dear!

to all those who were sincerely there for me :) i never EVER regretted living each day of my life with you all :) thanks

"kaulah Segalanya"

Kau mahu bak segala
Cinta yang ku dahaga
Kehadiran dirimu
Menyinari maka semua hatiku

Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinari hidupku kasih
Hanya satunya
Yang kucintai

Hulur tanganmu kasih
Sambut cintaku
Jangan tinggalkan daku
Seorang diri
Tak sanggup lagi dilukai oh..

Maafkan daku
Jika salahku
Peristiwa yang pernah ku alami dulu
Aku tahu betapa pahit
Mu menerima sejarah hidupku oh..

Kaulah segalanya
Yang menyinari hidupku kasih
Hanya satunya
Yang kucintai

Sambutlah cintaku
Jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
Cintaku padamu
Ikhlas sejati
Cintaku padamu
Ikhlas sejati

after exam!!! (freedom ??? i dont think soo...)

After a long month of exams... i think ia sigh of relieve is let out.... but that sigh of relieve comes with a string of worries, fear anxiety and a whole lot of sadness... why ? you may ask... even i myself find this intriguing...it is like clouds circling the mountains and we see it as cloud(which only appears to be surface level) and not bothering about what lies beneath it.. (this applies very well for ALL homo sapiens )

...well i was happy to leave Kampar and was eager to see my mum and dad and not forgetting my friends... but then after watching a comedy ('Where Got Ghost ?? ') things change.. i think i shall respect that person by protecting it's identity...

It was unhappy of things i did.. i went with soon leong and my gf ... i had to choose, i tried to make him and her and IT happy and satisfied, but it turns out that no matter how hard humans try to please one another, it is just not right... there WILL be still some obvious dissatisfaction... i really don't know now... in a heavy dilemma..

to be continued..

pangkor!!!

here are some pictures that show i enjoyed!!!

hmmm...

i was having a real mixed weekend, maybe its because my life is real confused... or maybe i just made it more confusing. I was enjoying myself in Pangkor with family while i was missing my baby who was studying... i love her so much... ok ok back to the story, i was enjoying myself and behind my back i was really blur about things that were happening. These incidents made me realize that being nice to people must have its' limitation.i gave up trying to be nice to people but end up being ignored and left hanging and deserted in an island. that was what some people made me feel. i mean if you dont have the guts then dont do it... but my friends and people who know me would truly understand that i like being confronted to the face and i hate people who pretend. it might hurt but it will make me stronger but then in life i have decided to stop being nice to other people and start being selfish once on a while. im sick and tired of caring deeply for those who hardly even give a shit about other people. :( that is all i feel like blurting out to u guys :) thankx for being there listening to all my rubbish.

A feeling...

Im here to open up my true feelings...

there are a few category of people that i truely love in my life

1~ my Family(family 1st)

2~my girlfriend ( my baby )

3~My adik angkats and my friends..

...

so lets get to the point...

it must be the power of love.. that only the people mentioned in thesse groups really make an impact in my life... i have known this guy MAtt... he was my junior... i ask him to be my ADik angkat and he agreed... i was happy ... and like any brother would do was to take care of him as m siblings but then as time went by , a certain Event had occured that really pestered his life greatly, i was sad too cause it was seldom that i feel empathy for him or anyone in that matter, i was trying my best to comfort him but then as he felt better.. i was being pushed aside.. i was extremely hurt when i found out that he was sorta pushing his anger towards me.. so i gave him his space and for almost two weeks or more that i have had sleepless night thinking wether what had went wrong and whether he was fine... i was really worried... was really am... if ive done anything wrong to anyone, i ask of u all for forgiveness and then if you all do i would be free of sinful debts. :S i really dunno

i just wished that life was like a time machine.. so that i was able to go back in time to set and make things right :)

new beginning...

have you ever wonder why people fight , why things happen, we always say thingd happen for a reason and we know that this saying might or might not be true because it depends on individual interest.... so a lesson that i have learnt is that every bad ending comes with a new happy beginning... i have went thru it and i realize that we always see he negative side of things until we really know and understand why these things happen... sheesh... well we all have to learn the hard way ... :P

Love is SHY not BLIND!!!

i would like to blog about my dear friend .... she is deeply denying the fact that she is in love with her best friend... we all know that smiles graciously when that particular person calls... but then... she says... "WE'RE JUST FRIENDS ONLY!!!"so now tell me... i think she is shy and denying the fact... not only that its so obvious that she lights up immediately that even her other friends realizes it ... ahaah so knowing this S and I have concluded love is shy!!!

Are you sure what you're seeing is real?

after some point in life you would begin to realize that some thing that are in front of you might not be exactly what you see. its like a chemical substance that can make you change the prespective of your point of view toward the person or thing. well i discovered who my true friends are and without a doubt they are there for me even when im the biggest B**** , neither they would take my kindness or anything for granted, My level of tolerance is so great that sometimes i doubt myself, am i even human??? but all well ends well...my priciple of life is to be nice and not to harm anyone... but soon it will change.. when the time comes.. :D

One FUN day!!!

It was a Beautiful Tuesday morning when my friend MJ and I decided to make it a weekly ritual that we walk to the Kampar morning market.....look at the sky!!!!

As we were entering the morning market , we saw the signs (hehehe)....i was like an ancient shopping mall where they tell u the aisle and what things are there....

and the funniest thing was at one corner, there were a few old ladies enjoying sellling their stuffs there (or more like gossipping )

..this was a must take .. ahahha because they were actually posing for us... and p.s. that lady at the end ..was actually digging her nose..lol

we continued our journey in the market in awe like some 三八( orang ulu ) with no motive....so we decided to pay the fishes a visit...

.....Here are the fresh fishes available in the market....damn fresh whey....

....aren't they fresh....

LOOK at How BIG the SQUIDS aNd how TRANSLUCENT

THEY ARE!!!!

AND.....everything from then on appeared in PAIRS...don't believe me? (check it out!)

aren't the fishes fresh and cute..

the people there were very nice to have allowed us to take a plenty of pictures..

and there was this particular fishmonger who was very helpful..

and right opposite his stall... were my "friends" ... i love eating them

XOXOX ahahahhahahaXOXOX

~crabbies~

*grins*

~After seeing the live seafood.....~

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we saw the DEAD ones...

After ALL the stink.. we decided to take a stroll at the flower department for a natural scent

~look at how colourful and beautiful GOD's creation is..........................~

I got real HUNGRY and decided to eat char koay teow....it was a real treat for it was awesome

~after class a friend decided to call me for dinner and treated me to Kopitiam A...

and i had curry chicken rice where as my friend had rendang chicken rice....

~that is all... i wanna sleep... im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo exhausted...:S~